Sunday, August 31, 2003

this entry is dedicated to ELVIN!
My ou xiang, pls take care~!!

Saturday, August 30, 2003

man.. it's now 11:30pm.. very very tired.. gonna turn in in a jiffy...
Went back to RV and ACJC today... When my mum drove me past RV's building before going, man... i was touched... dunno why but my nose just went sour loh.. i'd say, I had many memories in RV.. hehez.. like my first bf, my different culture shocks, netball, track and field, stage performances, debate, house cap,... haha... though it's a communist sch aka really chee-na, i enjoyed myself! erm.. other than the missy uniform lah. Saw quite a number of teachers... All aged... or maybe i AGED! haha... Saw the RV senior, Zhi Rong, whom i met at netball centre then at NUS first day of sch at Science fac, then today in RV. haha.. really very awkward as in the first time we met. I was shouting after him... haha.. shall not elaborate. You all sure say i very stupid... =(
ANyway, then i proceeded to ACJC with rebecca to visit my form teacher and geog tutor. Made them keychains using the shrinking paper... They very pitiful... dun have half day like normal schs or full day for pple like me who erm.. ponned again. So all of them stuck in sch STUDYING. When i was at the gate, i saw my ex-GP teacher! haha.. she say i looked different. bet she meant fatter cos my senior say i "fa fu"!!! Grr... that's the result of not exercising for near 3 mths. Ok.. then saw mahaini and mrs yap while walking up the staircase. both are my econs tutors.. VERY STRICT and erm... a bit "short-circuited".. hee..
Finally saw Ms Leow but she's in class.. so didn't get to talk to her much. but she looked more stressed up.. heard that the new 1AA2 isn't as cooperative and nice as the first 3 mths one.. sad for her man... she did admit that she misses the old class... i miss my 1st 3mth class too...
Anyway, then went geog rm to look for Mr Lynn. Yup he's in lesson too.. so just passed him the keychain and left.. he's still very impressed by a phrase i said when he suaned me last time. "self-acceptance and inner healing".. hahaha!
Then went back Westmall to meet elvin (you wanted to see ur name ya?) to go elim. Crapped throughout the whole journey. i mean.. nothing new cos when we talked we always crap. even when he asked me if there's anything going on between Chris and i, i was also laughing away. Sorry la elvin, just couldn't help it. maybe one day if i see the serious side of u, i'll treat u nicer! =) BUT, there's really nothing going on k? very close frens. Have been dat close for more than 1+yrs. It's only because u nv took notice of us hanging out together tht's why u feel that we are close now. yup. =) can ask others lah. =)
kk... i need sleep. have fun for those who are still solving the questions i gave...
nitez, world! =)

Thursday, August 28, 2003

regarding today's class fellowship, we didn't managed to really do the whole thing cos after discussing with a few, we feel that shouldn't rush.. might be too overwhelming for them.. so we introduced and explained to them what class fellowship is abt and what we'd do. Will officially launch it later.. Heard from Cheryl that Benji is very uncomfortable everytime during chapel and any christian thingy. Need to pray for him..
I felt so fulfilled and accomplished! I managed to revive through my 3 long days in a wk! haha... Monday until 4pm, tuesday until 5pm and today until 4pm! However, today was even more hectic cos i did my PW at harbourfront until 8pm! So tired.... BUT i'm not going to sch tmr so that makes up everything man!! gonna sleep in until 8+pm then go RVHS.. Meeting Belle and pple at 10am at RV bustop. There're some pple whom i long to meet tmr. Hopefully they turn up lah. =)
Then maybe chit chat or what with everyone and waste time until 3+pm to go ACJC... Want to visit Ms Leow and pple... heard from rahmat and waiyin that things are very different liao.. cos the 2nd in-takers keep bullying madam and she's so stressed up. Hopefully, I'm allowed to go her class tmr to pass her a gift... I miss them! =')
Anyway, met up with timothy Ho just now. He's having flu and the whole table top is covered by his tissues papers! eeiii!! He's still as messy like last time and think put on weight AGAIN! He's helping me with my project lah. All the media stuff.. killing me sia! =) i'm really tired of it already... all my time consumed by this PW...
Ok.. gtg liao.. just realised elvin has a blog. very spiritual one. He's leading worship tmr and i'm doing back up. ELVIN, DUN TAKE REVENGE K? hehez...
SHARON IS ONLINE!!! =)

Wednesday, August 27, 2003

okok.. no surprises. I'm home AGAIN.. i think this habit of getting out of sch earlier is not very good.. esp with the assistance of teachers.. or should i say collaboration? i seriously feel that they are spoiling me... Anyway, i was outta sch before 9:30am, after attending double period econs lecture. They really need to revise the time table. Today i only have econs, PE and chinese and i have to stay in sch until 2:10pm. Yesterday was worse!! 7 free periods from 10am to 2:50pm... and still, i have to stay until 5pm due to geog tutorial. i think it's very exhausting cos u have nothing to do other than staring at your fren and she stare back. ok maybe did some hmwk too lah. BUT i was stuck in SCHOOL. =(

Anyway, i think i really should change my attitude... I should start liking school. I dun mind doing hmwk or studying but sch is really dreadful sometimes... However, I was thinking these few days, maybe i should try thinking what i could do to enjoy sch a bit more.. then the Class Fellowship thingy just flashed across. Then during Christians Chapel on monday morning, the teacher told us that we're in SAJC for a purpose be it we like the sch or not... It just struck me.. I really dun like SAJC... It has nv crossed my mind that i'd end up here... Term two, was busy with training and competition and didn't care much.. until after the season, realised that i can't bring myself to like the sch...

When approached by ACJC coach to go back AC after June holidays, I was rather excited... cos not only would I be playing with a top team and be with my 1st 3mth frens, i enjoyed all the chapels and Christian fellowship stuff.. However, maybe it's God's will.. I found out that I'm injured.. rather seriously... The whole plan was screwed immediately... i mean who would want to go thru all the paper works to get an injured player over?

Having to go thru a surgery and passing the gates of hell wasn't that fun actually.. come to think of it, it was a very scary experience... Pain, fear and loneliness.. I was glad God was there with me thruout... =) But this also mark a long temporary break from sports.. which means, i'm CCA-less and wouldn't be able to do something i enjoyed all these while had put in a great deal of hardwork in... It wasn't easy... (silly! why am i tearing!) there was also this break down of relationship for me in the team.. I really didn't know some of them disliked me.. Dying for me get out... Only the 2nd intakers understood my plight... and unfortunately, the 3 of us were all the main players and we aren't that popular amongst the others... Different aim and vision for the team... We respect the game a lot but apparently, they feel that we are there to compete with them.. Maybe coach shouldn't have asked us to teach the defenders or even said things like, "Try attack since i dun have anything to teach u all abt defence liao." I miss playing competitive netball... But things are very different now. Coach wanna see me.. He wants to know when i'd be back.. Seriously, i WANT to play next yr's season... Not totally for the team but for myself and my partner, Sadaf.. She doesn't really have fun time with the team either.. She's approached by RJC... BUT, not sure abt my condition. =S

Alright, back to topic....

So i'm stucked in SAJC... I'm really full of regrets whenever Pam and Elvin call me a "loser" cos i left ACJC for supposedly NJC but ended up... Have been telling myself I HAVE to like the sch cos God placed me here... Now, i'm slowly to understand that it's not the school i have to like... It's the people in the sch that i have to develop compassion for... Serving in ministry in church is no big deal UNLESS we fulfill our destiny and understand our cause on this Earth... and that is to make disciples of God... I really hope Class Fellowship is gonna create an impact in their lives... My frens... esp, 1 of the contacts in my Daniel's Prayer... I mustn't be lazy anymore, thinking that "Aiya... next time lah..", It's scary upon thinking what if, they just die the next moment... *-* Sometimes, I can't even be sure myself if i'd go heaven if i die now... what do i have to show God? my achievements? for what? I can't even see the angels cheering and dancing for me because i did well on Earth, fulfilling my destiny of bring more people to Christ... That's my focus now.. to know God better and to draw closer to Him... Seeing my frens join me in the family of God. Amen. =)

Tuesday, August 26, 2003

I miss Joy, I miss Sharon!!
Man.. Joy would be gone for near a year and Sharon, until Dec. Hai~!!!
Anyway, kinda excited cos my class gonna have class fellowship! We're launching it this Thursday at M.E period. Gonna start on a small scale first.. Going to have a short worship then testimonies from some Christian classmates while makaning then prayer needs. I believe God's gonna ROCK! YEAH! Everyone, pls keep this event in prayers. Gonna make it permenant if possible next time! Pray for openess of pple as well as His spirit and strength be upon the Christians in my class. =)
Friday is teachers' day celebration. I'm not going to sch for sure. Dun wanna attend ACERS(sp?). Think i'd be going back to ACJC to visit Ms Leow and teachers. Miss them so much! =) Not much use going back RV cos most of my teachers are no longer around. Such as, Julie Quah, Ms Koh, Ms Han,... Teo Lip Guan also retiring. Mdm Teo... like forever won't retire. She thought Jaclyn, Eric and sharon before somemore! AMAZING.
kk.. getting sleepy... will blog again next time. =)

Saturday, August 23, 2003

Actually, i blogged on tuesday but aparently, it was not saved. anyways, just an update of what has been happening since the last time i blogged which is like... 1 wk plus ago!!
14th Aug (Thurs)
- Youth worship ministry meeting

15th Aug (Fri)
- Watch "Home Run" in the late morning with elvin and shirley
- Went to Elim church early for rehearsal cos was on duty
- The Edge (took of my sling before i sang on stage cos it'd be too striking...)

16th Aug (Sat)
- Learning Journey at the Naval BAse where many of my classmates were inspired to join navy. =P
- Did PW for a while with grp then went home.
- Went Auntie Sue's house for Divisional Mission meeting. (it was quite fun cos everyone really did the research on Bhutan and was very expressive upon presentation! However, that country is really "hard"... Keep her in prayer pple.. )
- Went SIS for the Hillsongs concert with Chris, Sharon, Samuel, Jason, Sulinn, esther, phin, Darryl and Aaron. (It was SOOOOOO interesting! They did "agnus dei" really wonderfully!! Many pple... Hope edge could attract this amt of pple one day. AMEN! =) )

17th Aug (Sun)
- Ran after the church bus with my siblings cos we were late. Fortunately managed to caught it. =)
- Morning Service. (sat with Sharon. =) )
- Went to Jurong Point to "beg" pple to do surveys... Need it for my PW. (Most of them are so lazy and inconsiderate! I got scolded quite a few times cos they dun wanna help. Then when answering those "yes or no" questions, upon seeing "If yes, why" they all changed their answers to NO!! Gr...)
- Went to Ponderosa at Marina Square with my siblings to celebrate my younger brother, John's bday. He's 16 liao!! =) (Really ate A LOT! -burp-)
- It's ESTHER FOONG's BDAY!

18th Aug (Mon)
- Went to school but left at 10 plus AGAIN! I just DUN WANT to go for GP lessons... hopefully, i'll start liking the teacher soon... maybe i should start getting better grades for it also. =P)
- Went to airport to send Joy and the israel team off... (man.. i'm missing her a lot now!-sob-)

19th Aug (Tues)
- Didn't go school in the morning. Went for physio. Torture sia...
- Watched "Singapore's Brainiest Kid" (Apparently, i'm definitely not that smart.. can't answer most of the questions other than the math ones..)

20th Aug (Wed)
- Went to school (left early AGAIN)
- Went physio and suffered AGAIN
- Gave tuition (the kid was so attitude! even threatened to fall asleep!)
- It's my BROTHER'S BIRTHDAY!

21st Aug (Thurs)
- Went physio
- Went home to rush econs essay
- Went sch for JJ lin's concert (interviewed him cos need to write an article. He's so boyish. However, his voice was really not bad. Very talented.)
- Went sharon's house for farewell cum 21st bday party. (She only invited closer frens.. i was the only younger youth there. Thank God everyone was friendly lah! =) Had fun tho. )


22nd Aug (Fri)
- Went school and attended most of the lessons. (-applause-)
- Left school early again for physio in the afternoon.
- Met up with my net members i.e Joel and Ethan for kopi at westmall coffee bean. (wrote a card for Sharon. It was a very fruitful meeting as we got to know each other better and we crapped a lot! So much suaning! Next time must make sure eric comes too! )

Regarding today, i shall reserve for later... All i can say is sending off two of my closest friend in church in a wk doesn't feel that good after all... I'm missing Sharon and Joy already... ='(

Wednesday, August 13, 2003

ALright pple, I didn't go to sch today cos i studied for econs test last night and ACCIDENTALLY overslept this morning... pai seh.. Then i wanna rush down but MR lee ask me to stay home since i'm still on MC. He'd give me the retest next time. =)

I went HarbourFront with my mum for lunch today after meeting my PW for discussion at PSA starbucks. On our way home, mum missed a turn and we ended up at pasir panjang road, then the wholesale centre then west coast park then NUS then clementi then finally home... Wah... travelled to many places sia... but we had fun lah.. cos we were like competiting with the weather cos it was threatening to rain any moment and what makes it worse was us going the wrong way. hee...
Anyway, when i reached home, I was just laying down on my bed reading magazine, enjoying the coolness of the weather without knowing that the sleeping bug was eating into me. hehez.. the next sec, I was soundly asleep. Slept for 1hr plus!! man.. so comfy! I really need lotsa rest man..

Oh ya! I resumed sch on monday. Apparently, I cannot get use to waking up early and lasting thru the whole day of lessons. Monday, I left sch at 10+am when lessons should end at 5pm. Tuesday i managed to last thru the whole day but had 3+ hrs of free period and getting a cracking headache by the end of the day. =p Today, gee.... never even go sch. Tomorrow, not going to sch again cos I'm having Physio Therapy. Friday, dunno yet...

With regard to the previous entry in my OD, marcus retaliated rather harshly but i'm not interested in posting it here again. He'd just spoil my page. hee... anyway, I think i really shouldn't have defended myself in the first place, hence giving him and opportunity to be mean to me once again. So this time round, i'm just gonna keep quiet. No use talking to pple who doesn't have ANY sympathy or compassion.
I think my house mistress must have heard something. She msged me saying that i dun have to bother abt what others say. She'd talk to me when i go back and in the meantime, i just have to rest and recover fast and catch up with sch work. Thank God for understanding teachers. =)
kk... gonna makan dinner liao. laterz~