she said "things have changed and that things might never be the same again."
"I lost her months ago and I only realise it now."
"Friends come and go."
"They won't stand by you all the time. This is what I have learnt. But, I will still stick to my values and stay by those who will stand by me longer than the others... "


She really was my best friend. Four years. We cried together when we lost matches. We crapped and laughed together. Went for National Trials together. Being selected for clubs together. Being scouted by other JCs together. Ended in the same JC. Played in the same team for 5 yrs. We had been with each other for very long. She said i was her elder sis. Always taking care of her and giving her opinions of which she felt was always useful... However when things turn sour and both of us or maybe most of it, me, didn't try to salvage, the relationship will nv be the same again.
I understand that friends come and go. I miss her but the feeling isn't there anymore.
Indeed, I lost her and she lost me.

I need to get a dress asap for the ball.


Today marks the first day of my promotional exams. For those who don't know what is a promotional exams (more commonly known as promos), it is an examination that all JC1s have to take to determine if they qualify for JC second yr. If fail, will be retained.
Basically, didn't exactly feel anything throughout all FOUR papers today. It was more like a routine. Like I know i have to finish the paper and a bit like zombie lah... Just do and do, write and write then hand them in. Maybe this is the result of 15 years of schooling. No matter what i'm glad that at least 4papers are done. I have 5 more to go.. met lin wei in the bus and she said she only have 3 more and all are with at least 3days interval. Ok.. My subject combi just sux. =(
Anyway, wanna thank all those who encouraged me be it through email or sms such as MADELINE (she was really swift in replying. -applause-), desmond, derek, qiuxia, qiuyi, elvin...
I believe all prayers work and I felt God's intervention today despite being quite in a daze. =)
kk.. I'm not exactly in a mood to update actually. Gonna study at harbour front again tmr. Was planning to watch Infernal Affairs on Wednesay until elvin reminded me that there's combine worship and prayer ministry meeting.. I totally forgot abt it... but since i'm in the midst of exams, can i be excused? I really wanna watch Infernal Affairs... Waited for so long liao.. I think I'd go and watch on wed even if no one comes along. I WANT to watch it! hee.. so brat. =P lalala..
kk... John wanna use com liao.
P/s: pray for my shoulder pls, pple... Today even had to put hot pack while taking the papers cos painful. =(

ok. I AM TOTALLY EXHAUSTED. I attended sch for 1 whole week without MC!! Ok.. other than leaving sch early on monday. It's a great accomplishment k! hahaha... =)
Ok.. another "accomplishment" is i actually did homework this wk! like 3 geog tutorials, 1 GP comprehension and half a econs essay! hahaha... Wanted to finish the econs essay on tuesday night one but there was guest in the house and all of us were just toooooo distracted. "Us" as in john and his frens and me! Ok.. guest was tino. Kor and him came back from camp to print something. Fortunately, maid was around so the house is in GOOD and TIDY condition! He is really talented in those designing stuff. He played john's guitar also. Not bad lah. crush crush! hahaha... but jie and friends say better dun indulge cos he's not Christian! hee... =) understand lah, pple!
Anyway, not gonna think abt it too much cos no harm just being friends mah. Moreover, kor say i'm goin to the comm's ball with him so at least know him better can help ease awkwardness. =)
ok.. it's getting late and i'm getting really tired.... tomorrow gonna study at harbourfront before going elim for the edge.
rest well, world. =)

Went to auntie Jenny's place to have dinner last night. We had steamboat but I didn't touch the steamboat at all!! haha.. Ate the ready cooked food with elvin, esther, eric and the kids. haha.. the russian team and adults eat at the table.. sob... elvin said the xia ren (servents) eat in the living room. haha.. =)
Anyway, it was very fun cos everyone know each other and Cynthia and Wendy were just too funny! I'm gonna miss them when they leave man... =( Oh ya.. Bro kenny's twin daughters also very cute. I played Lego with them. hmm... due to the pause to play with them, totally didn't feel like eating anymore liao. Must at one go for me one.. haha.. UNLIKE SOMEBODY. He ate 3 rounds! No wonder his mother always say he eats a lot.. lalala.. dun need to guess also know who ya, pple? hee... =D
I was half maria there last night. Cos ELVIN FOONG YAN KIT said I should wash the dishes! Being nice and filial to my godmother, I washed the dishes with Rina. Then cleared the toys then served the ice-cream. But the Full maria is still elvin lah. After we left, he had to clean up the place and dishes by himself. BUT he's the host mah. lalalala...
Enjoyed myself thoroughly!! haha.. So thank you elvin for inviting!! hee.. =) Fortunately he didn't say things he isn't suppose to!
Btw, I'm getting a treat to go for Turn Left Turn right AGAIN cos somebody is getting paranoid wanting to know SOMETHING! haha.. I hope the treat comes with the video clip! *hint hint* =)
kk.. didn't go prayer tonight cos i need to finish my geog tutorial and econs essay. "Monopoly is evil. Do u agree?"
take care!

Lalala.. this is the dunno how many days in this month that i sneaked out of sch before the appointed time... kk... one of the reason why i'm home this early is because i'm still sick and the other is MS ANG GEK BOON is absent!! wah.. i've not seen the class so excited over something before! ok... We don't erm.. really like her lessons lah.. and there's 3 periods of GP today and her absence means early dismissal and peace! cos many of us hasn't finish the GP compre.. including urs truly.. Flunking GP for promos should still be able to promote for me so I'm gonna whack on my other subs..
Anyway, mum and sis were back from Thailand last night and my dad came to Singapore also. So last night was the RARE opportunity whereby ALL the 6 of us were around! so cool! We went out for dinner and crapped a lot.. Dad talked abt his hunting trip in the morning, kor as usual abt his OCS life and blah blah... Again, my CHEEKY kor took out Tino's photo to show everyone. Sis said he looked quite ok but dad say he looks like coolie or bondan i cannot remember.. but it's not something nice lah! haha.. then i say in dad's eyes, ONLY his two sons are the most handsome la! haha... But we really had lotsa fun! =)
Then we sent kor back to his camp. Such a posh place man.. Was thinking if we'd see Chris Lim or what but nv lah. gee.. Kor's commission is on the 4th.. So I'll be missing edge.. Someone record the service for me! haha... =)
Beng Kiat and Jo watching "Pirates" tonight.. dunno if i should go.. firstly, i MIGHT have to study. Secondly, I'm kinda sian diao over this show cos everyone has watched it liao! grr.. But i dun mind watching Turn Left Turn Right again! haha.. Oh ya! I bought another of Jimmy's Bk- Something about love. But i like the Chinese Title better, ni men wo men ta men (You Us Them).
kk... this entry is not getting anywhere cos there's practically nothing in my mind now.
Oh ya.. LASTLY, SORRY ELVIN! haha.. really didn't mean to bluff u last night that i was sitting behind u though i was at home! haha.. kk.. understand that u're pastoral and stuff. So forgive me lah! hee.. =)
OKAY! I think i prefer a nap before proceeding to wherever i'm yet to decide to study. =)

Lalalala.. Came back half an hour ago from town. Ok.. this is really ridiculous but kinda fun and interesting no matter what.
The edge was as usual fun and highly annointed. Apparently, everyone's rather high after Sentosa and it was such a spectacular sight seeing EVERYONE jumping when worshiping~!Cool! haha.. love to be on duty with Isa. We have the mo4 qi4 to jump together! =)
k.. after edge, i went town to meet my elder bro for dinner.. other than the main reason that i really wanna see him, i was broke and needed a treat! haha.. however, kor has ulterior motives also! He planned for me to meet his OCS mate. ok... it's either he worries for me that i might not get married or for his friend. Anyway, it was a rather pleasent session.
Kor's OCS mate is from hongkong lah.. Very young though. 19yrs. His name is Tino. Ok.. this must mention for sure. He looks like Chen Guan Xi, edison!! haha.. Kinda gentlemanly also. Dunno whether to say innocently cute but still need to get to know him better before i can comment. Talked to him quite a lot during the one hr. Considered quite ok cos at least we dun run out of topics really frequent. =) kk.. I shall get my mind off this. hee...
Anyway, think too much abt this kinda things is not good. It;s the trap of the devil!! haha.. i told my sis abt today's session and her first question was "Is he a Christian?" haha.. though sound old fashion but it's very important for us i guess.. ok. gotta stop hubbing on this topic. Ultra unhealthy.
Tomorrow on duty again. 3rd time in a wk.. BUT it's always good to serve the Lord. wonder who's the worship leader. =)
kk... shall end here.. mum and sis coming back from Thailand tmr. Heard that mum bought MANY earings! haha.. recently have this great affection for earings. =)
Alright... Good night, world..

Got this off my sis's blog. So cool~! You can really read the whole chunk without problem!
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// posted by Eunice @ 10:14 AM
Alright back to topic.....
I felt so liberated. Many things have been happening and i'm glad things are improving... I cried in front of Becx... really couldn't take it anymore then cos she's my very good fren and she's unhappy abt me too.. dunno how's it now but at least we talked it out... =) I think it's very important cos we've been friends for so long doing the same subs and in the same class...
Ok... regarding my class, i told becx.. I like all of them a lot.
Carol is always so cute. Always saying, "Lixin, got miss me or not?" although i just saw her the previous period.
Then got Peiqing, the touch rug girl who BURPS louder than a guy!
Shanny, really feminine man.. she has a LARGE collection of bottoms... denims...
Charlene, always blur blur one but also cute lah...
Cheryl, bubbly but maybe we still need to gain more understanding lah...
Samsiah, laughs at almost everything but she teaches me lotsa Malay! i like her! haha..
then got my faithful asst. class rep, Benji. really appreciate his help a lot when i wasn't around. Would be studying econs with him! Mr lee say we must get C. yah.. from grade E to C. bleahx.
Then *drums roll* My Pillar of Support and someone who trusts me lots, SITING!! I've known her since 2nd day of sch in ACJC.. We joined netball together in AC and SA, went to appeal for NJ and didn't get in, came to SA together, ended up in the same class then same PW grp, have the same passion and zest for netball and sports, christians and she's very frank with me when she feels that i'm in wrong or what.. I treasure her a lot. I thank God for her! =)


Sulinn told me that i shouldn't lose faith then.. Cos God wouldn't want to see us in pain... He would certainly place some special ones to help me tide over the situation. Indeed, other than siting, there's also Lin Wei.. She's my primary sch fren.. we're always the tallest in class last time so always stand behind. Had so much fun then.. Now, we suddenly started seeing each other EVERY morning in the bus no matter what time we exit the house. We talked a lot and really misses those days... She'll often drop a note for me... very encouraging friend.


Of course, there's also Sulinn. We don't usually talk to each other though i've been in VFC for nearly 4 yrs.. Somehow, there was just this wall? I was scared of her and for her, she sees too much of herself in me and it was difficult to talk i believe.. It was really God's timing that i sat beside her last sunday service and she prayed for me... prophetically.. and i really broke down. She said leave the battle to God... He'll settle it... Then I shared with her abt what happened and was surprised to realise that she went the exact same thing when she was in JC... she said it's actually quite helpless of her as she wasn't able to tell me what was going to happen if i do this or that... It's timely that we only talked more deeply after yrs.. When she msged me, i even had to msg back to ask, "who's this?" haha.. she also had to ask qiuyi for my number. hee..
Another person is my OU XIANG, elvin!! *applause*. Very encouraging friend as well.. spiritual also! Like what i mentioned in my past entries, there're just pple around and u just dunno their presence until some events. And friendship is established! It's just God's divine timing. It's amazing and beautiful. All my friendships are planned pre-hand by God. Knowing elvin better is a blessing. Sometimes, U really need Godly friends to give godly advices or even just prayers...
Of course there're also other pple who made a difference in my life. Such as, Sharon, Shirley, Auntie Sue, my sis,... I learnt a lot from them... Not forgetting esther foong and qiuxia who are my kai xin guo. They brought much joy for me! haha.. though sometimes cannot tahan esther's craziness or qiuxia's blur-ness.. hee...
No matter what, I just want to say "THANK YOU" from my heart. =)