Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Saturday, November 27, 2004
ok.. It's really time to blog properly.. ALTHOUGH I'm really tired and sleepy now.. heh.. it's past 12am!
It has definitely been a rough and exhausting month.. Be it physically, mentally or emotionally. But God was faithful and He really brought me through.. If by my own strength and with so many things happening at one go, i really would have broke down badly.. I wouldn't deny that i DID broke down a few times when i kept looking to myself. God constantly reminded me that He's around and I really only have to care abt Him. He is my Audience of One.. The only one i need to please... =)
Basically, as the previous blog says, A Levels is OVER! =) Finally.. I dun think i'd do well but again,everything is in God's hands and you'd really never know. Maybe they might just key in the score of shanny twice and we have the same grades! which will definitely be better than mine la. haha...
Secondly, my birthday! haha.. this yr, I dated my books on the actual day!! Actually, it wasn't that bad la.. the night before my bday, elvin gave me a very filling birthday dinner at NYDC. Wah.. really ate A LOT. appetisers, drinks, main course. I was so full and couldn't even finish my food! But got elvin, all plates will be cleared la. =P Then on the actual day, ate breakfast with elvin at BK then studied for near 4hrs before heading home. Was rather depressed cos bday has always been a special date marked on my calendar and I'm stucked with my books and can't go out to celebrate and ALONE at home.. Was so so so sad and was msging esther complaining. heh.. Never did i thought that THEY actually planned a surprise celebration for me.. It must have been esp tough on elvin cos he came up with the idea and i was even angry at him just cos i had to spent it alone. haha.. so brat! He wanted to just tell me abt the celebration but refrained and suffered my nonsense.. (thanks, dear!)
Before they (Joash, Joel,Esther, Elvin and my siblings) came up to my house door, I was even having a very bad diarrhoe and was toilet bowl-ridden. haha.. For evidence, refer to John's blog. I was having puffy eyes and looking sick! haha.. =) Yup, so they came with a cake, sang the bday song and we ate the cake and watch DVD.
Although this bday was just plain initially, everythin just brightened as I realised like what Joel said, I really have the nicest frens(sibings included) around and a really sweet boyfriend.. It's really a bliss to have them. I was so touched. Now i've got another "brother" (Joash) who calls me "er-jie". He has been a blessing too! Not forgetting the previous and existing ones, i.e the P3 (John, Joel and Des). They are really pple who are closest to my heart and I just wanna make sure everything's ok with them and love them.. Of course, it has to be mutual la.. =S
Of course, there's still Esther Foong.. She's definitely the most amazing fren i have.. All the ups and downs we went through but still perservering and going on stronger cos we're bonded and brought together by a covernant with God which should not be broken easily. From threatening to jump out of window, crying while writing letters to now close and blissfully frens, all I can say is "thank you, Lord".
I thought i should thank my brother, John, as well.. He has always been around.. being the mini messenger to elvin sometimes when i'm feeling down at home or what.. I guess we are really loving each other and sharing more than before.. There's only gonna be escalation to our relationship and I mean it.. =) Not forgetting, my elder sis too.. Wanna be closer too. =)
Lastly, elvin. I think no one can love me the way he does le.. other than God of course la.. It's beyond words of how thankful I am that he is always there. Although i get angry at him sometimes cos of different communication style, he is always willing to change and giving in to me.. Like Ps Doug's wife, he only looks at what is good and nice in me, built it up and pray for me. We've learnt that love is not just a feeling but a commitment.. A commitment to God and each other.. It has just been wonderful having him.. Thank God for elvin... =)
Ok.. and all those who msged or wished me (angel, colleen, brian, gabriel, hilda, shirley, aunty jenny, uncle alan, richardson, tino, mark, Samuel.J21, esther chong, esther lin, Chris, Elaine, Beng Kiat, Wen Jian, Callista, siting, shawna, Charis, danielle.SA, Waiyin, Rahmat, Quiyi, Quixia, Sharon, Nigel, Des, Weili, Joy, huiping, hyen ying, peiling, Jessica, jidi, bro Israel, sis barbara, Samsiah, sheena(fellow bday-ee), Shih Hua, weihui and others),thank you for the love and concern.. I'm glad i crossed path with all of you.. =)
kk.. that's all for now cos it's 1am and i'm tired.. =(
Love ya, pple!! =)
It has definitely been a rough and exhausting month.. Be it physically, mentally or emotionally. But God was faithful and He really brought me through.. If by my own strength and with so many things happening at one go, i really would have broke down badly.. I wouldn't deny that i DID broke down a few times when i kept looking to myself. God constantly reminded me that He's around and I really only have to care abt Him. He is my Audience of One.. The only one i need to please... =)
Basically, as the previous blog says, A Levels is OVER! =) Finally.. I dun think i'd do well but again,everything is in God's hands and you'd really never know. Maybe they might just key in the score of shanny twice and we have the same grades! which will definitely be better than mine la. haha...
Secondly, my birthday! haha.. this yr, I dated my books on the actual day!! Actually, it wasn't that bad la.. the night before my bday, elvin gave me a very filling birthday dinner at NYDC. Wah.. really ate A LOT. appetisers, drinks, main course. I was so full and couldn't even finish my food! But got elvin, all plates will be cleared la. =P Then on the actual day, ate breakfast with elvin at BK then studied for near 4hrs before heading home. Was rather depressed cos bday has always been a special date marked on my calendar and I'm stucked with my books and can't go out to celebrate and ALONE at home.. Was so so so sad and was msging esther complaining. heh.. Never did i thought that THEY actually planned a surprise celebration for me.. It must have been esp tough on elvin cos he came up with the idea and i was even angry at him just cos i had to spent it alone. haha.. so brat! He wanted to just tell me abt the celebration but refrained and suffered my nonsense.. (thanks, dear!)
Before they (Joash, Joel,Esther, Elvin and my siblings) came up to my house door, I was even having a very bad diarrhoe and was toilet bowl-ridden. haha.. For evidence, refer to John's blog. I was having puffy eyes and looking sick! haha.. =) Yup, so they came with a cake, sang the bday song and we ate the cake and watch DVD.
Although this bday was just plain initially, everythin just brightened as I realised like what Joel said, I really have the nicest frens(sibings included) around and a really sweet boyfriend.. It's really a bliss to have them. I was so touched. Now i've got another "brother" (Joash) who calls me "er-jie". He has been a blessing too! Not forgetting the previous and existing ones, i.e the P3 (John, Joel and Des). They are really pple who are closest to my heart and I just wanna make sure everything's ok with them and love them.. Of course, it has to be mutual la.. =S
Of course, there's still Esther Foong.. She's definitely the most amazing fren i have.. All the ups and downs we went through but still perservering and going on stronger cos we're bonded and brought together by a covernant with God which should not be broken easily. From threatening to jump out of window, crying while writing letters to now close and blissfully frens, all I can say is "thank you, Lord".
I thought i should thank my brother, John, as well.. He has always been around.. being the mini messenger to elvin sometimes when i'm feeling down at home or what.. I guess we are really loving each other and sharing more than before.. There's only gonna be escalation to our relationship and I mean it.. =) Not forgetting, my elder sis too.. Wanna be closer too. =)
Lastly, elvin. I think no one can love me the way he does le.. other than God of course la.. It's beyond words of how thankful I am that he is always there. Although i get angry at him sometimes cos of different communication style, he is always willing to change and giving in to me.. Like Ps Doug's wife, he only looks at what is good and nice in me, built it up and pray for me. We've learnt that love is not just a feeling but a commitment.. A commitment to God and each other.. It has just been wonderful having him.. Thank God for elvin... =)
Ok.. and all those who msged or wished me (angel, colleen, brian, gabriel, hilda, shirley, aunty jenny, uncle alan, richardson, tino, mark, Samuel.J21, esther chong, esther lin, Chris, Elaine, Beng Kiat, Wen Jian, Callista, siting, shawna, Charis, danielle.SA, Waiyin, Rahmat, Quiyi, Quixia, Sharon, Nigel, Des, Weili, Joy, huiping, hyen ying, peiling, Jessica, jidi, bro Israel, sis barbara, Samsiah, sheena(fellow bday-ee), Shih Hua, weihui and others),thank you for the love and concern.. I'm glad i crossed path with all of you.. =)
kk.. that's all for now cos it's 1am and i'm tired.. =(
Love ya, pple!! =)
Monday, November 01, 2004
Ok... This is it. THE biggest thing that can ever happen to me in my academic life- A'levels.
Here goes...
041104 (thurs)
General Paper 1&2 (3hrs 30min) (0800~1130hrs)
051104 (Friday)
Chinese 'A' Paper 1 (3hrs) (0800~1100hrs)
Chinese 'A' Paper 2 (3hrs) (1430~1730hrs)
171104 (Wed)
Economics Paper 3 (2hr 15min) (1400~1615hrs)
191104 (Friday)
Geography Paper 2 (3hrs) (0800~1100hrs)
221104 (Monday)
Economics Paper 1&2 (3hrs 15min) (0800~1115hrs)
241104 (Wed)
Geography Paper 1 (3hrs) (1400~1700hrs)
Do keep me in prayers ya? I really wanna do well... =)
Thanks! ^o^
Here goes...
041104 (thurs)
General Paper 1&2 (3hrs 30min) (0800~1130hrs)
051104 (Friday)
Chinese 'A' Paper 1 (3hrs) (0800~1100hrs)
Chinese 'A' Paper 2 (3hrs) (1430~1730hrs)
171104 (Wed)
Economics Paper 3 (2hr 15min) (1400~1615hrs)
191104 (Friday)
Geography Paper 2 (3hrs) (0800~1100hrs)
221104 (Monday)
Economics Paper 1&2 (3hrs 15min) (0800~1115hrs)
241104 (Wed)
Geography Paper 1 (3hrs) (1400~1700hrs)
Do keep me in prayers ya? I really wanna do well... =)
Thanks! ^o^
Friday, October 22, 2004
How lovely is your dwelling place
O Lord Almighty!
My soul yearns and even faints,
For the courts of the Lord.
My heart and flesh cry out
For the living God.
Even the sparrow has found a home,
and the swallow a nest for herself,
where she may have her young-
a place near your altar,
O Lord Almighty, my King and my God.
Blessed are those who dwell in your house
They are ever praising You
Blessed are those whose strength is in You,
who have set yheir hearts on pilgrimage.
As they pass through the Valley of Baca,
they make it a place of springs.
The autumn rains also cover it with pools.
They go from strength to strenth,
till each appears before God in Zion.
Hear my prayer,
O Lord God Almighty.
Listen to me, O God of Jacob.
Look upon Your shield, O God.
look with favour on your annointed one.
Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere.
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
For the Lord God is a sun and shield
the Lord bestows favour and honour,
no good things does he withhold
from those whose walk is blameless.
O Lord Almighty,
blessed is the man who trust in You...
Psalm 84
Monday, October 04, 2004
ok.. i'm back. =)
Prelims results are more or less out. By raw score, all my subjects improved by 1 grade. So maybe after moderation, might up a lil more cos some sub's score is like 59 type. =) All in all, thank God for this grace and faithfulness.. =)
Today marks EXACTLY 1 mth to my A's. i.e 30days. And I've godzillion amt of content still not at my finger tips. Knowing is one thing but fully understanding it and vomitting it out again onto my scripts during exams is a different case totally. Guess.. I need to work even harder on that.. For the first time, I'm deeply traumatised by how scary exams can be.. Seriously, studied a lot but dunno what to throw in as answers, blank mind last min, cannot finish the paper, false understanding of the Qns,... =)
Anyway, all i hope for now is just PEACE. No one bothering me. No one talking and complaining. No one interferring with my life. I just wanna finish my A's safely. That's all I wanna do. I dun wanna be like someone i know of (He gave me advice) who screwed up his major exams cos of these nonsensical probs that he put on himself. For me, maybe i didn't handle it well enough and so pple can get hold of something and slam me. Stinks.
But above all, I do believe God is gonna deliver me of which i need to do my part as well.. I wanna have my confidence and self worth in God.. In Him, I find my PEACE and assurance..
"Lord, draw me back to you again.. Let me not be blinded or deafen by all that is occuring.. Send someone, Lord, to be a friend, a support and confidant. Give me, Lord, strength to carry on.. Give me a home where I find rest. Lord, never forsake me, I plead... All I need is You. All I have is You."
Prelims results are more or less out. By raw score, all my subjects improved by 1 grade. So maybe after moderation, might up a lil more cos some sub's score is like 59 type. =) All in all, thank God for this grace and faithfulness.. =)
Today marks EXACTLY 1 mth to my A's. i.e 30days. And I've godzillion amt of content still not at my finger tips. Knowing is one thing but fully understanding it and vomitting it out again onto my scripts during exams is a different case totally. Guess.. I need to work even harder on that.. For the first time, I'm deeply traumatised by how scary exams can be.. Seriously, studied a lot but dunno what to throw in as answers, blank mind last min, cannot finish the paper, false understanding of the Qns,... =)
Anyway, all i hope for now is just PEACE. No one bothering me. No one talking and complaining. No one interferring with my life. I just wanna finish my A's safely. That's all I wanna do. I dun wanna be like someone i know of (He gave me advice) who screwed up his major exams cos of these nonsensical probs that he put on himself. For me, maybe i didn't handle it well enough and so pple can get hold of something and slam me. Stinks.
But above all, I do believe God is gonna deliver me of which i need to do my part as well.. I wanna have my confidence and self worth in God.. In Him, I find my PEACE and assurance..
"Lord, draw me back to you again.. Let me not be blinded or deafen by all that is occuring.. Send someone, Lord, to be a friend, a support and confidant. Give me, Lord, strength to carry on.. Give me a home where I find rest. Lord, never forsake me, I plead... All I need is You. All I have is You."
Friday, September 17, 2004
Ok, Prelims are officially OVER. This is the toughest exam I've ever taken.. Spread across 4wks, extremely long hours and most disgustingly the stuff i need to study can mount up to tons! All in all, A'level prelims just suck. haha.. =)
Nonetheless, It's O.V.E.R!!
Really appreciated all who kept me in prayers throughout this period of time, namely my family, elvin, uncle John, Sis Judy, Shirleys, richardson, my net(duh!), Qiuxia and the list goes on. God did show forth His grace and mercy on me, giving me a calm spirit even when most of the time, i either couldn't finish studying, couldn't rmb much of what i studied, or couldn't even finish the paper! heh.. not gonna disappoint God during the actual A's, after this weekend, I'm so so so gonna pia like mad. Write essays after essays.. time myself to finish on time.. I always CANNOT finish my paper!! It's either i think too much, too long or I write too slowly. The latter is more possible cos i've nothing in my mind to ponder and write!! Like my physical geog paper the other day! All the Wadis, Kopjes, piedmont zones, deserts, argh...
HAve been enjoying myself interacting with pple whom i seldom talk to. For instance, BRIAN!!! hahaha.. hey brother, i'm acknowledging you here in public, in the borderless world of internet! hahaha.. Got to know him better over these weeks and ya, he's a nice guy! A sincere fren. hehe.. (your head is swelling, brian!) hehe.. like now, i'm chatting with him on MSN!
okok... although i really wanna have a long long entry, but guess, i better prioritise and clean up my room first! all the notes and files are flying arnd! kk.. till laterz..
P/s: Shanny, dun worry ya? I'll be dying with you when results come out. you're not alone there! =)
Nonetheless, It's O.V.E.R!!
Really appreciated all who kept me in prayers throughout this period of time, namely my family, elvin, uncle John, Sis Judy, Shirleys, richardson, my net(duh!), Qiuxia and the list goes on. God did show forth His grace and mercy on me, giving me a calm spirit even when most of the time, i either couldn't finish studying, couldn't rmb much of what i studied, or couldn't even finish the paper! heh.. not gonna disappoint God during the actual A's, after this weekend, I'm so so so gonna pia like mad. Write essays after essays.. time myself to finish on time.. I always CANNOT finish my paper!! It's either i think too much, too long or I write too slowly. The latter is more possible cos i've nothing in my mind to ponder and write!! Like my physical geog paper the other day! All the Wadis, Kopjes, piedmont zones, deserts, argh...
HAve been enjoying myself interacting with pple whom i seldom talk to. For instance, BRIAN!!! hahaha.. hey brother, i'm acknowledging you here in public, in the borderless world of internet! hahaha.. Got to know him better over these weeks and ya, he's a nice guy! A sincere fren. hehe.. (your head is swelling, brian!) hehe.. like now, i'm chatting with him on MSN!
okok... although i really wanna have a long long entry, but guess, i better prioritise and clean up my room first! all the notes and files are flying arnd! kk.. till laterz..
P/s: Shanny, dun worry ya? I'll be dying with you when results come out. you're not alone there! =)
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