she said "things have changed and that things might never be the same again."
"I lost her months ago and I only realise it now."
"Friends come and go."
"They won't stand by you all the time. This is what I have learnt. But, I will still stick to my values and stay by those who will stand by me longer than the others... "


She really was my best friend. Four years. We cried together when we lost matches. We crapped and laughed together. Went for National Trials together. Being selected for clubs together. Being scouted by other JCs together. Ended in the same JC. Played in the same team for 5 yrs. We had been with each other for very long. She said i was her elder sis. Always taking care of her and giving her opinions of which she felt was always useful... However when things turn sour and both of us or maybe most of it, me, didn't try to salvage, the relationship will nv be the same again.
I understand that friends come and go. I miss her but the feeling isn't there anymore.
Indeed, I lost her and she lost me.

I need to get a dress asap for the ball.


Today marks the first day of my promotional exams. For those who don't know what is a promotional exams (more commonly known as promos), it is an examination that all JC1s have to take to determine if they qualify for JC second yr. If fail, will be retained.
Basically, didn't exactly feel anything throughout all FOUR papers today. It was more like a routine. Like I know i have to finish the paper and a bit like zombie lah... Just do and do, write and write then hand them in. Maybe this is the result of 15 years of schooling. No matter what i'm glad that at least 4papers are done. I have 5 more to go.. met lin wei in the bus and she said she only have 3 more and all are with at least 3days interval. Ok.. My subject combi just sux. =(
Anyway, wanna thank all those who encouraged me be it through email or sms such as MADELINE (she was really swift in replying. -applause-), desmond, derek, qiuxia, qiuyi, elvin...
I believe all prayers work and I felt God's intervention today despite being quite in a daze. =)
kk.. I'm not exactly in a mood to update actually. Gonna study at harbour front again tmr. Was planning to watch Infernal Affairs on Wednesay until elvin reminded me that there's combine worship and prayer ministry meeting.. I totally forgot abt it... but since i'm in the midst of exams, can i be excused? I really wanna watch Infernal Affairs... Waited for so long liao.. I think I'd go and watch on wed even if no one comes along. I WANT to watch it! hee.. so brat. =P lalala..
kk... John wanna use com liao.
P/s: pray for my shoulder pls, pple... Today even had to put hot pack while taking the papers cos painful. =(

ok. I AM TOTALLY EXHAUSTED. I attended sch for 1 whole week without MC!! Ok.. other than leaving sch early on monday. It's a great accomplishment k! hahaha... =)
Ok.. another "accomplishment" is i actually did homework this wk! like 3 geog tutorials, 1 GP comprehension and half a econs essay! hahaha... Wanted to finish the econs essay on tuesday night one but there was guest in the house and all of us were just toooooo distracted. "Us" as in john and his frens and me! Ok.. guest was tino. Kor and him came back from camp to print something. Fortunately, maid was around so the house is in GOOD and TIDY condition! He is really talented in those designing stuff. He played john's guitar also. Not bad lah. crush crush! hahaha... but jie and friends say better dun indulge cos he's not Christian! hee... =) understand lah, pple!
Anyway, not gonna think abt it too much cos no harm just being friends mah. Moreover, kor say i'm goin to the comm's ball with him so at least know him better can help ease awkwardness. =)
ok.. it's getting late and i'm getting really tired.... tomorrow gonna study at harbourfront before going elim for the edge.
rest well, world. =)

Went to auntie Jenny's place to have dinner last night. We had steamboat but I didn't touch the steamboat at all!! haha.. Ate the ready cooked food with elvin, esther, eric and the kids. haha.. the russian team and adults eat at the table.. sob... elvin said the xia ren (servents) eat in the living room. haha.. =)
Anyway, it was very fun cos everyone know each other and Cynthia and Wendy were just too funny! I'm gonna miss them when they leave man... =( Oh ya.. Bro kenny's twin daughters also very cute. I played Lego with them. hmm... due to the pause to play with them, totally didn't feel like eating anymore liao. Must at one go for me one.. haha.. UNLIKE SOMEBODY. He ate 3 rounds! No wonder his mother always say he eats a lot.. lalala.. dun need to guess also know who ya, pple? hee... =D
I was half maria there last night. Cos ELVIN FOONG YAN KIT said I should wash the dishes! Being nice and filial to my godmother, I washed the dishes with Rina. Then cleared the toys then served the ice-cream. But the Full maria is still elvin lah. After we left, he had to clean up the place and dishes by himself. BUT he's the host mah. lalalala...
Enjoyed myself thoroughly!! haha.. So thank you elvin for inviting!! hee.. =) Fortunately he didn't say things he isn't suppose to!
Btw, I'm getting a treat to go for Turn Left Turn right AGAIN cos somebody is getting paranoid wanting to know SOMETHING! haha.. I hope the treat comes with the video clip! *hint hint* =)
kk.. didn't go prayer tonight cos i need to finish my geog tutorial and econs essay. "Monopoly is evil. Do u agree?"
take care!

Lalala.. this is the dunno how many days in this month that i sneaked out of sch before the appointed time... kk... one of the reason why i'm home this early is because i'm still sick and the other is MS ANG GEK BOON is absent!! wah.. i've not seen the class so excited over something before! ok... We don't erm.. really like her lessons lah.. and there's 3 periods of GP today and her absence means early dismissal and peace! cos many of us hasn't finish the GP compre.. including urs truly.. Flunking GP for promos should still be able to promote for me so I'm gonna whack on my other subs..
Anyway, mum and sis were back from Thailand last night and my dad came to Singapore also. So last night was the RARE opportunity whereby ALL the 6 of us were around! so cool! We went out for dinner and crapped a lot.. Dad talked abt his hunting trip in the morning, kor as usual abt his OCS life and blah blah... Again, my CHEEKY kor took out Tino's photo to show everyone. Sis said he looked quite ok but dad say he looks like coolie or bondan i cannot remember.. but it's not something nice lah! haha.. then i say in dad's eyes, ONLY his two sons are the most handsome la! haha... But we really had lotsa fun! =)
Then we sent kor back to his camp. Such a posh place man.. Was thinking if we'd see Chris Lim or what but nv lah. gee.. Kor's commission is on the 4th.. So I'll be missing edge.. Someone record the service for me! haha... =)
Beng Kiat and Jo watching "Pirates" tonight.. dunno if i should go.. firstly, i MIGHT have to study. Secondly, I'm kinda sian diao over this show cos everyone has watched it liao! grr.. But i dun mind watching Turn Left Turn Right again! haha.. Oh ya! I bought another of Jimmy's Bk- Something about love. But i like the Chinese Title better, ni men wo men ta men (You Us Them).
kk... this entry is not getting anywhere cos there's practically nothing in my mind now.
Oh ya.. LASTLY, SORRY ELVIN! haha.. really didn't mean to bluff u last night that i was sitting behind u though i was at home! haha.. kk.. understand that u're pastoral and stuff. So forgive me lah! hee.. =)
OKAY! I think i prefer a nap before proceeding to wherever i'm yet to decide to study. =)

Lalalala.. Came back half an hour ago from town. Ok.. this is really ridiculous but kinda fun and interesting no matter what.
The edge was as usual fun and highly annointed. Apparently, everyone's rather high after Sentosa and it was such a spectacular sight seeing EVERYONE jumping when worshiping~!Cool! haha.. love to be on duty with Isa. We have the mo4 qi4 to jump together! =)
k.. after edge, i went town to meet my elder bro for dinner.. other than the main reason that i really wanna see him, i was broke and needed a treat! haha.. however, kor has ulterior motives also! He planned for me to meet his OCS mate. ok... it's either he worries for me that i might not get married or for his friend. Anyway, it was a rather pleasent session.
Kor's OCS mate is from hongkong lah.. Very young though. 19yrs. His name is Tino. Ok.. this must mention for sure. He looks like Chen Guan Xi, edison!! haha.. Kinda gentlemanly also. Dunno whether to say innocently cute but still need to get to know him better before i can comment. Talked to him quite a lot during the one hr. Considered quite ok cos at least we dun run out of topics really frequent. =) kk.. I shall get my mind off this. hee...
Anyway, think too much abt this kinda things is not good. It;s the trap of the devil!! haha.. i told my sis abt today's session and her first question was "Is he a Christian?" haha.. though sound old fashion but it's very important for us i guess.. ok. gotta stop hubbing on this topic. Ultra unhealthy.
Tomorrow on duty again. 3rd time in a wk.. BUT it's always good to serve the Lord. wonder who's the worship leader. =)
kk... shall end here.. mum and sis coming back from Thailand tmr. Heard that mum bought MANY earings! haha.. recently have this great affection for earings. =)
Alright... Good night, world..

Got this off my sis's blog. So cool~! You can really read the whole chunk without problem!
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// posted by Eunice @ 10:14 AM
Alright back to topic.....
I felt so liberated. Many things have been happening and i'm glad things are improving... I cried in front of Becx... really couldn't take it anymore then cos she's my very good fren and she's unhappy abt me too.. dunno how's it now but at least we talked it out... =) I think it's very important cos we've been friends for so long doing the same subs and in the same class...
Ok... regarding my class, i told becx.. I like all of them a lot.
Carol is always so cute. Always saying, "Lixin, got miss me or not?" although i just saw her the previous period.
Then got Peiqing, the touch rug girl who BURPS louder than a guy!
Shanny, really feminine man.. she has a LARGE collection of bottoms... denims...
Charlene, always blur blur one but also cute lah...
Cheryl, bubbly but maybe we still need to gain more understanding lah...
Samsiah, laughs at almost everything but she teaches me lotsa Malay! i like her! haha..
then got my faithful asst. class rep, Benji. really appreciate his help a lot when i wasn't around. Would be studying econs with him! Mr lee say we must get C. yah.. from grade E to C. bleahx.
Then *drums roll* My Pillar of Support and someone who trusts me lots, SITING!! I've known her since 2nd day of sch in ACJC.. We joined netball together in AC and SA, went to appeal for NJ and didn't get in, came to SA together, ended up in the same class then same PW grp, have the same passion and zest for netball and sports, christians and she's very frank with me when she feels that i'm in wrong or what.. I treasure her a lot. I thank God for her! =)


Sulinn told me that i shouldn't lose faith then.. Cos God wouldn't want to see us in pain... He would certainly place some special ones to help me tide over the situation. Indeed, other than siting, there's also Lin Wei.. She's my primary sch fren.. we're always the tallest in class last time so always stand behind. Had so much fun then.. Now, we suddenly started seeing each other EVERY morning in the bus no matter what time we exit the house. We talked a lot and really misses those days... She'll often drop a note for me... very encouraging friend.


Of course, there's also Sulinn. We don't usually talk to each other though i've been in VFC for nearly 4 yrs.. Somehow, there was just this wall? I was scared of her and for her, she sees too much of herself in me and it was difficult to talk i believe.. It was really God's timing that i sat beside her last sunday service and she prayed for me... prophetically.. and i really broke down. She said leave the battle to God... He'll settle it... Then I shared with her abt what happened and was surprised to realise that she went the exact same thing when she was in JC... she said it's actually quite helpless of her as she wasn't able to tell me what was going to happen if i do this or that... It's timely that we only talked more deeply after yrs.. When she msged me, i even had to msg back to ask, "who's this?" haha.. she also had to ask qiuyi for my number. hee..
Another person is my OU XIANG, elvin!! *applause*. Very encouraging friend as well.. spiritual also! Like what i mentioned in my past entries, there're just pple around and u just dunno their presence until some events. And friendship is established! It's just God's divine timing. It's amazing and beautiful. All my friendships are planned pre-hand by God. Knowing elvin better is a blessing. Sometimes, U really need Godly friends to give godly advices or even just prayers...
Of course there're also other pple who made a difference in my life. Such as, Sharon, Shirley, Auntie Sue, my sis,... I learnt a lot from them... Not forgetting esther foong and qiuxia who are my kai xin guo. They brought much joy for me! haha.. though sometimes cannot tahan esther's craziness or qiuxia's blur-ness.. hee...
No matter what, I just want to say "THANK YOU" from my heart. =)

Thank you, Sulinn.


Thank you, elvin.


Thank you, esther.


Thank you, God....
....for You really NEVER fails...

My hamsters, Rusty and Frosty, died together... tragically...


I've watched Turn Left Turn Right (A chance of Sunshine). It's so nice!! Surprisingly, it's not VERY romantic but VERY funny!! Was laughing so hard throughout the show but there were still touching moments of course. The group of audience i watched with yesterday were very engaged in the movie. There's lotsa sound effect by the crowd when the leads just keep "missing" each other... kinda funny listening to those actually. =) Oh ya... I watched it with esther, clara, qiuxia and jessie lah. all girls. Totally immerged into the show man.. haha...
Some said that the story line is very ridiculous but i seriously believe that maybe u have been meeting the someone very frequently. The "sorry wrong number" person over the phone, the one who took the escalator upwards when u were going down or someone whose feet u've stepped on when trying to get to ur seat in a cinema. It's just the timing. One day sure will meet again. But u won't even know that actually, u all have met for so many times! hmm...
(p/s: I can't write too much abt the story lah... Later elvin or others kill me for leaking it out... He tried to strangle me when i threatened to tell him the ending!! haha... ELVIN!! BRIBE ME BY TREATING ME TO THE MOVIE AGAIN!!! haha...)
kk... today is already the fourth day of the NTU workshop. Have to go to Chinatown later to do a short video or photo article.. will be rushing from NUH lah..


10am- Physio
11am- Doc's review
12pm- Interview and video producing @ Chinatown
7pm- Prophetic service for YOUTH!! so excited over it.. heard they are going to have prophets on each video-linked sites. cool... wonder who would be prayed for sia... =)


Oh ya! I forgot to mentioned abt family dinner last night! My mum and kor came back! so we went to sakae for dinner. Mum left early cos she had some customers to meet... but my siblings and i stayed to chit chat lah. I miss my kor so much! He's very very seh one! haha.. then he told us abt his Brunei trip. It sounded cool! =) Yesterday was also my parent's anniversary... 7-8-9-10. Married in 1978, 10th Sept. But too bad lah.. my dad was too busy.. he didn't come. Still in msia. but nvm.. i still love all of them!! haha... Dad planning to have the whole family go on holidays this year end. Frankly speaking, our family really haven't gone on a holiday together. normally half half with different combination. so kinda excited. Dad was thinking of Japan but my siblings and i just wanted somewhere nearer and exotic.. Cheaper also lah. 6 of us in total leh! It's the get together that's most important mah... =)
kk... gotta start preparing liao... long day ahead!
tata!

haven't blogged for few days.
Many things happened this wk and really felt very drained. but God is faithful. He promised that He'd always be there and he did. Love ya, God! =)


*typed a whole chunk of things but felt that there's no use mentioning them again so deleted.*


I mentioned in my previous entry that i miss my brother's smile... indeed, I really do. Was looking through some pics and realised that it's been so long since i see those kinda smile.. So many things happened... He's totally obsessed... I hope he can get out of it. i hope he can resume the way he is. When he was playing with qiuyi's dog, milo, last night, i thought i saw John when he was young.. those days when we'd play with jun jun and my plump plump brother will hug her so tightly. So lovable. He was very innocent and cute. I like him a lot last time though i nv tell him. We always fight of course but which siblings don't? He was the one who brought me into the jungle to cycle and play in the mud. I can still vividly hear my mum's screams, "don't run around! maid just mopped the floor!" We always get sick together and my parents will be so busy. When my parents quarrel, we'll always hide in the same room. I really don't ask for a very intimate relationship with John like having him tell me his secrets or what but i just want him to regain his joy. I'm very sure that's what my sis wants too... There's just a tall wall between him and us now... We really dunno what is he thinking or what he says is true or not... On Sat, i saw him when i was gng home from elvin's. he flung his arm at me when i was trying to talk to him.. I was utterly shocked. But I told myself that i cannot flare up on him.. so i kept quiet... elvin was msging me then but i was totally in no mood to reply. So told him that i was very tired and gng to sleep soon. I cried for near 30 min in my room.. he didn't care.. he stayed in his room.. Doors as usual, shut tightly. In his own world. I was so tired of things that i really wanted to give up.
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However, as i said, God is faithful. Sunday's sermon was very good... worship was good... I felt relieved. I knew that i've forsaken my first love... i've lost focus as i had been too consumed by all these things that i just keep burdening myself.. Sch work, pple relationship, my bro, my parents and disappointment in pple... All i need actually, is to Remember, Repent and Return... When i went down for altar call, i just let myself cry... maybe i've tried too hard to please everyone that i've lost my joy. Maybe due to the things that others did, i've lost my ability to love others once again... But i just let it all out. I thought i saw a very fatherly figure ran up to me and embraced me fully... The prodigal son's story... HE nv gave up on me even when i even thought he's not around anymore... God is faithful. He is love, peace and joy.
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Regarding my bro, I trust that God is going to do something... it may be through the hard way to make him realise or wake up.. Maybe i shouldn't plead for God's mercy on him and be lenient on my bro anymore... i might just be hindering God's work.. However, i'd of course be still praying for Joy in my bro! =) It's really good to have a God to depend on when the world seems so dark... amen..
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He told her that he likes her and she's the one for him. Although she did like him then but she's just tired. She wants to get married but she's scared of being in love. She should just marry someone 10yrs older and be loved. She's selfish but she'd rather have it that way. She doesn't want to take any risk.
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NTU mass comm workshop is fun. Today is the first day. 4 more days to go! Food is VERY good. Got to know more pple. All having the same level or even more interest for Chinese.. Actually, i dun mind doing journalism next time... But i'd want to write a bk next time. haha... Ms Han wanted to compile all my essays when i was sec 4 to publish a bk! i dun think i had the capacity then lah. or now! Anyway, while waiting and during the lectures, i wrote 5poems.. hee... =)
That's all.. having terrible tummy upset. Gonna go out for dinner with my bro then study...

Hi pple. I'm in sch right now, having NOTHING to do... Don't even know why i'm in sch for when today being the last day of the term, there'd only be half day of sch and my first half of the day is FREE PERIODS. Came to sch thinking that there's gonna be chapel or assembly. Apparently, they have it cancelled without informing us before hand. Maybe they anticipated that many will not come... So now, I'm just waiting for time to PASSSSSS..... 1 hr more. I can only leave at 10:45am... Argh. I'm so bored. I've tried watching "Bent it like Beckham" in the MRL terminal with samsiah but they say only ONE to a station. Duh. So we went to cafe and ATE AGAIN. Samsiah always complain that at the rate i eat and always chewing food, my jaw willdrop one day. hehez... it's not exactly my fault what... At least now i'm choosing fruits over nuts and sweets. =) BUT there's really nothing to do in sch lah.
Alvyn just told me that i'm gonna be the spokeman for the house on College Open house. I'm still not quite sure what i'm suppose to do but if i'm not wrong, should be TALKING to the Sec4s who visit lah. Hopefully my dao-ness will not scare pple away. hehez...
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Okay. Guess what time my whole family knock out last night?! 9pm~!! haha.. ok.. we started eating dinner at 7+pm then watch tv in the living room. Then slowly, my sis fell asleep on the sofa then my bro went to his room and the next sec i knew, I also fell asleep on the sofa!! haha... Then at 8:40pm, we all woke up, clear the plates and decided to SLEEP!! haha.. it's record time loh! 9pm leh!! Normally, we'd only sleep around 11pm or later. Esp this week, all of us very busy with work. I even slept at 1am on Wed. BUT that's normal because every wednesday is my TV night. Love the show Lavender~! But it was a good rest lah. Needed it quite badly. =)
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10 more minutes to go before meeting the class to go for 45min of econs tutorial. I'm running outta things to type. Actually no lah. Have a lot but just dunno where to start. bah.
I miss waiyin and pple.
I miss weili and esther and jing jun.
I miss Layming and phoebe.
I miss my Dad.
I miss my grandmother.
I miss my childhood (cancelling out all the beatings and scoldings i had from my mum when i misbehave).
I miss my elder bro.
I miss John's smile.
I miss Boon Tik and all my msia frens (maybe should sneak out to go KL with them again~!).
I miss Sharon.
I miss Joy.
I miss netball.
I miss painting.
I miss swimming.
I miss watching fire flies.
I miss the sea.
I missed someone.
I miss cycling.
I miss playing in the mud with my siblings.
I miss my primary sch uniform.
I miss all my free time.
I miss myself....
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time to go. =)

It's really good to have a maid at home. When you reach home, the house is clean and everything is neat. After you settle down, she brings u soup or drinks. Then the house is filled with this nice aroma of her cooking. I haven't eaten home cook food for near 6mths! as many can guess, MY MAID IS BACK! haha... Another thing that i like is I can speak Malay to her. I just like speaking in malay.. though my malay C.M.I.

Anyway, today is really a foul day but i'm feeling very much better now. Went for a jog illegally. Ran 2km and was already panting like wat... Rusting liao.. Ok.. I'm still not suppose to run cos of my shoulder but i'm just so vexed that i need let those air out.. And it feels really good to be in the sun once again. Really am thankful that God nv fails... =)
Actually my minor "depression" started when i saw my fren writing "lixin sux" in my PDA. Of course, I didn't confront her or what but laugh it off. However, in my heart i was thinking, is there anything i do wrong or act that cause her to write those kinda thing? I mean she's my fren and now I'm just wondering if she really is my fren anymore. But.. nvm... then the "slimy" guy incident. duh.
Okay.. Today was the extreme. Since pple think that it's JUST a surgery, why dun they think that it's JUST a sweater?! HELLO!! *knock head* IT'S a S.W.E.A.T.E.R. and it's main function is to keep warm. alright.. if u're clueless, I have this ACJC sweater that my AC classmates gave me after i left ACJC. Since it has been pouring of days and the weather IS cold, of course i'd wear something to keep warm and of course, a sweater! Why do they have to make such a big fuss over it?! At first, when Sadaf pulled me aside and told me that her class and others were asking why am i wearing an ACJC sweater in SAJC and why i went back to ACJC on teachers' day(dun even know how they got to know!), I was having this BIG question mark in my mind. "why cannot?" I asked... I've nv treated that sweater as something to signify anything. seriously. and, why those who went back to their first 3mths JC were not confronted? blehx.
The ultimate was when someone called me "poser" when i walked pass. Koaz.. I was furious but i held back. Sneaked out of sch real early. Was tearing when i walked from the gallery to the gate. STUPID. Shouldn't have sia!

Met elvin and quiyi for lunch. They left real early and i went to a bookshop and read MANY children story bks.. picture bks to be specific.. Then took a bus to NUH for physio. Apparently I was still in a daze. I missed the stop twice. and changed bus twice just to get back... Then came home at 4+pm and sneaked out to jog.
However, I'm definitely feeling much better. Esp when came home with near everyone in the family at home... =) I really thank God. He was the one who protected and sustained me through out... Cos i was nearly knocked down by a lorry and a car... I just keep day dreaming. very dangerous. erm.. and i nearly fell... okok... I'm VERY clumsy. look at all the scars on my legs lah. I'm like a "walking wound" (quoting Sharon).
Ok.. there's still so many things to do and i really need MORE JOY and STRENGTH... Keep me in prayers can? Thank you, all. =)

"wo zhi dao you xie shi hou wo de xin qing xiang tian qi.... ye zhi dao ni hui yuan liang wo de hai zi qi... yi tong hui xiang wo men de ceng jing... gan xie ni rang wo zai ai zhong cheng zhang... wo da ying wo hui ai ni zhi dao zui hou yi kou hu xi....."
Really hate hospitals... today went for physio alone in NUH... I dun like the dim and echoing corridors.... nor the stale smell in the air... nor the plain coloured walls... nor the sickly faces that i see everywhere.... it's just a place that i can only link it with death and sufferings... period.
Anyway, I'm kinda tired being so cheer-y everyday. It's too energy draining.... Many said that whenever i dun smile even when i'm day-dreaming, i look very dao and fierce... very unapproachable... they say i should smile more and i did and i dun like. Who cares if frowning will use more muscles... can tone up the face is not bad after all what... innocence versus reality. I miss those days when i can just play in the mud without being bothered by what others would think or those days where a laugh is really true from the heart. Wrote an essay on "Hypocrisy and the "staged" play" in Chinese of course, and teacher said that it's too "grey" and negative and rejected it. So i wrote another one on "life is like a picture" very positive and erm.. "bright". She likes it. duh. (*knock head* HELLO TAN LI XIN!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?) man.. when tiredness or weariness overwhelm one... Grr... I need a get-a-way.

alright pple, get ready.
I... *drums roll* did hmwk from 1+pm until 8+pm for straight 7hrs!! *applause* so fulfilled sia. Though didn't exactly finished a lot but still i tried my best! Finished a Chinese essay, a GSC compre, copied all the geog notes which i missed when i was absent for 2mths and read some GP politics notes. Tedious sia...
Elvin came over at 2+pm after his lessons to visit me. He "HELPED" me with my GP essay. SO NICE of him!! haha... actually he came for his english breakfast latte which he has been craving for since last night! No matter what, still wanna thank him for appearing. I was sooooo sleepy cos slept at 1+am last night and woke up at 8am to continue doing the stupid, time wasting, energy straining PW. Stinks... Elvin's appearance woke me up a little lah. I think he's very tired too cos he slept around the time i slept too and woke up at 6:45am. haha... hey elvin, it's not THAT bad. At least u dun have to go thru it EVERYDAY... Cheerio! ^-^

Anyway, during my "stay" in westmall coffeebean today, I got to know this girl from NUS, Arts Fac, First Year, also in campus crusade and studying Eng. Her name is eunice. The way we starting conversing was really amazing... As everyone knows, westmall;s coffeebean is like a freezer. Apparently, both of us were wearing shorts and were freezing in there... So after 5hrs of sitting next to each other without noticing, we said "so cold" at the same time and made eye contact! haha.. then started talking. Got to know that her brother's DGL is also elvin's DGL and she knows Chris Lim! I bet elvin will meet her one day. Same fac, some module, same year, same campus crusade! hehez... Invited her for the Joshua21 Reloaded but unfortunately, she had to send someone off at the airport that night. But we exchanged HP numbers. She named me, "esther.coffeebean.tan" and i named her in my phone bk, "eunice.coffeebean.lim" haha... I like her! Amazing how friendships can be established ya?!

Had been hanging out with elvin and pple quite a lot nowadays. Talked to elvin a lot too. Got to know him better also! Maybe due to the BBQ committee and Interview with the Devil lah. Seriously, in my memory, other than 3yrs ago i cried in front of him in a MRT, I dun remember talking to him or mixing with him until recently. Just like he never really took notice of me. So we can call quits! haha... Again, I have to say the way and time God bridges pple also very interesting. =) Exactly how i got to know Chris and became such good frens with him when we aren't in the same region nor had any common frens in the beginning. haha.. =)
kk.. i have to rest early today cos have been lacking sleep these few days... moreover, tomorrow got sch. fortunately, i'd be sneaking out early again for physio at NUH... actually i really hate hospitals.. it's a place where i always think people who goes in nv come out alive... maybe becos i lost my grandma in the hospital and i loved her a lot... remembering those days when i'd always hide in her place which is one street away from my house after mum;s beatings... She always bring me around in her tricycle... from me always sitting in the tricycle until i'm in charge of pushing from the back with grandma on the tricycle... I miss her but i know she's with God in heaven... My grandfather also suffered a lot in the hospital... He doted me a lot also.... As i'm the only one who wasn't afraid of him despite his face being really stern and fierce, i always force him to buy me "illegal" food i.e food not permitted by mum. He always call me "xiao niu mei" cos i was born in the year of cow. I have a feeling he doesn't even know my name is lixin... He died of lung cancer... from hair that i always play with when i was young cos there were lots and curly until bald cos of the therapy and medicine... I miss him too...
kk... getting real emotional... Miss my dad and mum too....
listening to sun yan zi's "bu neng he ni yi qi"

Reached home only at around 11:40pm... Rushing PW at Siting's house since 2:30pm... I really H.A.T.E PW.. but seriously, who likes it anyway.... it's just endless minutes (meeting notes), endless stacks of reading on topic that i totally do not comprehen and endless nights before the computer trying to chim-alise my eng. Argh.
Anyway, we took a break at around 8pm and head down to HV to makan. Ate at ThaiExpress. Apparenly, it should be called ThaiSlowPok(quoting siting) instead. we waited for near an hr before our food is served! Then being irritated(AGAIN), we started giving attitude. I think we asked the manager 3 times why aren't our food here yet and other waiters as well.. Then when they finally served, i told the manager, "Don't u think u should compliment us with something? We waited near an hour! This is ThaiEXPRESS." Siting say my face was extremely "dao" when i said that... initially, 3 of us have black-listed it BUT when they really gave us desserts for free, we took it off~~!! hahaha.. Too bad elvin wasn't that smart then to do the same. He waited for 1hr+ and in the end, didn't even get the food he ordered. =P (elvin, learn from me la!)
kk... it's actually 1+am now... was trying my luck to see if Sharon would be online but she's not! -sob- nvm...
pple! I changed my blog skin FINALLY! still exploring though.. but it's kinda fun! I like blue. =)
Tmr's gonna be a loooooong day... have lotsa hmwk to complete cos SAJC's inhumane teachers have NO compassion towards pple like me who missed sch for near 2mths! but nvm la. May God strengthens me!
Count down to promos: 30days.
Good night, world.