ok.. it had been raining for days and I have been dozing off every now and then and EVERYWHERE! haha.. in Lectures, in class, during tests, when doing homework, when using computer, when erm... doing devotions.. THE WEATHER IS TOO CONDUCIVE FOR SLEEPING! grr... But I like... (so mr Lynn..) haha...
Anyway, waiting for GP lesson to start 80min free period before that loh.. Waste time. Wah lao.. Library is so stinking cold and everyone is wearing jackets or sweaters. My dearest fren, rebecca is helping me type out the class emergency contact list! So nice.. hehez.. but i also intro her for a Chinese tuition deal. call quits!
As u can see.. this entry is just total crapping.. Have nothing in mind what to type and at the same time have nothing in mind to feel up my blank hmwk. =S
Meeting esther to jog today then study. Leaders having meeting at her house so i was thinking of asking her over to my place instead. Better ma! But i dunno whether my maid cleaned up the place before going back msia la. Maybe still very messy. hee..
Sis got her job as a lecturer in NYP! haha... though it's just a ultra fanciful name with a not so amazing pay but we are really happy that she got a job! esp when times are bad and she didn't even like send out MANY applications. Really thank God.. =)
My tutoring job is also providing me with some good money that i can save up for this yr's fever 100 trip! Thinking of opening another account.. so i won't ACCIDENTALLY spend it.. oh ya! Hopefully the church can let me have the 500bucks for the trip, instead of for gig! *brr.. fingers are freezing...*
Got to know uncle Boyle and Auntie Ann these few mths. I really like uncle boyle! so funny! sometimes very cheeky also. hehez.. But they are really generous pple, not just in monetary form but the way they really care and love pple. =) Of course, not forgetting my Godma, auntie Jenny and uncle george. They are also very nice pple.. Am really thankful to have known them through elvin and esther. God is always so caring.. these few mths, mum has always been in msia cos of her busy schedule in her kindergarden and auntie jenny really treated us well.. remembering the time when john and i were saying very long nv eat home cooked food when we were chatting before we sleep, the next day, auntie jenny invited us over for dinner.. dunno if it's of divine appointment but i'm still thankful! =)
kk... time's up. GP teacher coming to the lab liao.. shall end the crapping session. =)

Basically, I'm currently back in Spore and I'm not exactly happy abt it cos it's CHINESE NEW YEAR!! And when everyone is back home eating good food, playing fire crackers and enjoying all the time together, i'm now all alone at home. grr... it's all because of SAT! Greg said that the one who set the date must be an ang moh. Doesn't he or she know that CNY last for 15days?!
Anyway, I didn't study much for my SAT or maybe i should say nv touch... Pls pray for me no matter what... it's 8am tmr morning and should last until like 12pm la.. Thanks! =)
Jessie is leaving tomorrow. Gonna miss her lots! She's one of the niang-est fren i have and really have to learn from her.. hee.. laughing without showing teeth one! But she's a sweet girl. =)
Jessie ah! Better dun marry an ang moh BF there! esp those who don't even know CNY last for 15 days... grr...
k.. I'm back in Spore.

WHAT IS THIS MAN!? I TYPED SUCH A LONG ENTRY AND IT JUST DISAPPEAR LIKE THIS!? grr... No mood to type all over again liao... sianx..
ANyway, in short, it's my slacking day today and i'm in my dad's shop instead of mum's kindergarden and my siblings are helping out in the shop while i slack. I'm not lazy k.. just that i'm helping out in other stuff... i.e. domestic issues! haha.. I'll be going back to the house to cook food and deco la.. cos this is the first yr we are celebrating in our new house and we are very excited over it! Dad invited many frens to come visit and i invited my msia frens too! hee.. finally sia... =)
kk... just let it be a short one this time.. stupid com... I'll be back soon! though i'm like enjoying myself more here. hee.. wanna watch infernal affairs tonight! lalala.. Nice show! =)
Alright.. BLESSED NEW YEAR EVERYONE! If u have the heart, can always call my msia house to wish me BLESSED NEW YEAR TOO!! lalala..
take care, all!

Alright people, I'm in msia, enjoying myself. hehez... a really different kind of lifestyle here as compare to Singapore's. No more dirty house chores, cooking meals, ironing, mopping, sweeping!! haha... Basically, once i reached home yesterday, i just slacked in the TV, watching Dolphin bay.. nice show!! Then proceeded to grandma's place for dinner and saw many other relatives. Man.. i had fun!! even my younger cousins have gotten their driving license and they were laughing at me!! plus cars are not very ex here, most of them have their own cars and can just drive around!! I'm jealous like mad! grr.. then my uncles keep asking when i'm graduating or getting driving license.. hai.. Get a BF who has a car and driving license should be able to satisfy them at the moment maybe! joking joking!
Then we went home and..... HAD FRUITS IN THE GARDEN!! really feel like princess sia.. We have this glass dining table in the garden and last night, we just sat there, ate and chit chatted... with soothing garden lights and fountain beside! relaxing... after which we bathed for our dog. wah lao.. before we dried it, ILKA shook and all of us were wet! haha.. but it was fun la...
Wah.. just when i thought i can just everyday eat, sleep, rot, I realised i have to wake up early at 6:30am!! grr.... like going to sch timing.. but we are going to sch la.. my mum's kindergarden.. cos the students start coming in at 7:30am.. but lessons onli officially start at 9am..
Currently, i'm taking a break... today helped out here and there... coaxing children was what i was doing most of the time.. got told off by sis a few times cos i spoke mandrin with the kids which is strictly not allowed in our sch... hehez.. zhi ye bing! but`nonetheless, i had lotsa fun with the kids.. i like them!! esp, eric from nursery1 and kailun from toddles. =) so cute!! opps... yah.. i totally forgot i had to study for my SAT. grrr... =(
Anyway, now, i'm half dead. very tired.. sch is ending at 5pm but the parents always come late in picking up their kids.. as late as 7:30pm loh... no wonder my sis and mum can only reach home at 9pm each time.. pitiful...
Basically, i'm enjoying myself a lot here... because i miss my family a lot and seeing them really makes me very happy... my dad led family prayer this morning.. he thanked God for bringing us back together and he's able to see us... my heart just melted... ah... i love my dad! Realised that he has changed a lot.. his attitude and speech... God really transforms life.. and that's something only our God can do. Amen.
okok... though i'm enjoying myself, i'm missing you pple lots as well! for instance, my beloved esther foong!! hahaha... and of course des and joel la! okok... qiuxia, i never forget abt u! so take care ya? Enjoy ur Chinese New year with angbaos filled with Singapore dollars instead of Ringgit! =)

Worship and Intercession Meeting on Wednesday.
ok.. I was late for the meeting.. reaching only at 8pm.. And before that, i really dreaded going.. I was tired and wasn't feeling very good emotionally. And I was thinking.. i surely won't be able to concentrate even if i'm there.. there were so many things happening and i felt rather suffocated and overwhelm. But and again, God is faithful.. Despite adversities, I chose to attend and He is always there ready to touch and refresh us AS LONG AS we are willing to draw near..


When I reached, I can sense God's presence almost immediately! I just started weeping... God refreshed and granted me with new strength and even peace! I could feel the calmness and love so vividly that I just want to laugh... =)


The prayer item, relationship with God and giving Him what we have no matter how little it is, was so real to me... cos being consumed by things of the world and responsibilities, we tend to be slack in our relationship with God.. "sorry God, I'm really tired today.. tomorrow k? I promise!" I saw the importance of having an INTIMATE relationship. Not just any kind, like hi-bye or surface ones but INTIMATE one..


So I just stood there and prayed.. Auntie Jenny came to pray for me.. Strength and refreshing. It's really amen and amen!
Therefore, even as i made the choice of putting aside my adversities and run back into His arms, He took me in as i am.. =) I told God, use me, Lord, no matter how little i have to offer u.. I continued to pray and God showed me different visions and words for people.. Initially, like des and esther, I hesitated.. What if it's not from God? But it was so vivid and clear that I just cannot contain it anymore.. So I gave Joel a vision that i saw which was for him.. hehez.. though i really wanted it for myself. It was such a sweet vision. At least i thought it was. =)


Then I walked away and prayed more.. Heard a question that God wanted me to ask qiuyi.. Wah.. qiuyi leh.. She's our leader.. Moreover, I don't even know why that question was posted to her. The more I need to confirm if it's from God but and again, it's ringing LOUD. So I just told her.. When I prayed for her, I felt so painful for her.. She was crying so hard... At that point of time, I told God, "YOU ARE ONE AMAZING FELLOW."


Again, I stood behind the hall and worshipped... Then I saw Qiuxia.. Word from God again.. I was rather overwhelmed.. As in, "God, too many for a night la.. U're scaring me! What would others think?! I'm just a small fry leh!" But I obeyed.. Apparently, after the meeting, qiuxia told me she was waiting for confirmation and she told God to send someone to pray in regard to a certain area... WOAH! I mean.. WOW. Like what des said, by obeying God's voice, u can help God touch lives... Cos if we keep it to ourselves, someone might just still dwell in confusion...


After praying for qiuxia, I really wanna quiet down to pray for erm.. myself? to thank God and stuff.. but I saw desmond AND hai~ u all can just guess it easily.. But this word from God was even confusing cos that's not what i think of des... So I went to him and said something like, "des, I really dunno why i was given this word from God for you but I'll just pray as the spirit leads.." And God was in our midst.. =) On my way home, I received this msg from des, "thank you.. What u prayed for today was actually what i have been praying during every service for many years..." I was very touched seriously... Because God is faithful and He remembers every single one.. Not one is left behind...


Lift up your eyes and look to the heavens:
Who created all these?
He who brings out the starry host one by one,
And calls them each by name.
Because of His great power and mighty strength,
not one of them is missing.
-Isaiah 40:26

So You Would Come


Before the world began, you were on His mind
And every tear you cry is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son
Everything was done, so you would come


Nothing you can do could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done could make Him close the door
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son
Everything was done, so you would come


Come to the Father, though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His Blood
Everything was done so you would come

THE CROSS

A young man was at the end of his rope, seeing no way out, he dropped to his knees in prayer



"Lord, I can't go on," he said. "I have too heavy a cross to bear."



The Lord replied, "My son, if you can't bear its weight, just place your cross inside this room.



Then, open that other door and pick out any cross you wish."



The man was filled with relief and said, "Thank you Lord," and he did as he was told.



Upon entering the other room, he saw many crosses; some so large the tops were not visible. Then, he spotted a tiny cross leaning against a far wall.



"I'd like that one, Lord," he whispered. The Lord replied, "My son, that is the cross you just brought in."



When life's problems seem overwhelming, it helps to look around and see what other people are coping with. You may consider yourself far more fortunate than you imagined.
To be outward looking instead of calling out, "me, me, me." is what i've learnt in 2003...
In 2004,
"Spirit touch your church,
Stir the hearts of men.
Revive us, Lord
With Your passion once again.
I want to care for others,
like Jesus cares for me.
Let your rain fall upon me."


Let your love fall upon me.

apparently, many pple couldn't read the Chinese blog below. Basically, if u see rubbish fonts instead of Chinese Characters, you can right click then go encoding and click on either unicode or Chinese simplified. =)

回来
我迷失了方向，
双眼被蒙蔽。
张开眼睛，
却只看见世界的灰与蓝…
我以为自己已跌入无底深渊，
却发现你为我在远处点亮的灯。
我知道有些时候我的情绪像天气，
变化无常…
而我的孩子气你也完全容忍…
曾经怀疑过你对我的爱，
甚至觉得你不曾存在…
但你仍然单纯守候…
张开双臂，待我归来。
即使在我觉得自己真的不值得你如此，
你依旧轻声在我耳边细说：
“我爱你”。
当我重新踏上熟悉的小路，
心头战战兢兢，
却已见你蹒跚跑来，
双臂依旧张开，
泪流满面说：
“孩子，回来就好。“
“回来就好。”


wrote this when elvin posted his entry on the prodigal son. hehez.. now that i realise Blogger can type Chinese, i'm gonna fully utilise it!! =)
P/s: Sch is tiring but i'm enjoying. Surprisingly. I'm very happy for esther foong today!

Testify To Love


All the colors of the rainbow
All the voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches out to find where love begins
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify


For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences
When words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love


From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace
Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the hope in every heart will
Speak what love has done


Totally fell in love with this song after desmond sent it to me.. Yes, for as long as I shall live, I will testify to love.