in 30minutes, I will be going home. =)
I'm so so so happy that Iam going back KT..
Miss my family LOTS.
Can't wait to see everyone.
so this is how it feels when you're married out..
miss being my parents' little daughter.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Today I spent sometime really linking around reading the youths' blogs.
I got really depressed at the end of the whole process.
They are not the same passionate young people who told me they are gonna be a great testimony for God, shining for Him with their life testimony. Although I know, I should be expecting some difference, I wasn't that prepared I guess.
Being in the youth ministry for so long, looking at the youths grow from when we first took them in after CW, Elvin and I always feel like parents to every single one of them. When they overcome, we rejoice madly! When they fall, we hope we can always cushion every single one of them. In the process of them growing and finding directions, we hope we could guide them or give some advice. When they need a listening ear or a shoulder, our phones are never switched off.
Some told me, things are different now. The young people nowadays don't think like in my era. But I really think nothing should have changed in terms of thinking and mindset as our thinking and mindset is not determined or affected by how the world thinks. Everything is clear, no grey area.
I remembered when I did something wrong that's not abiding in the Word of God, I would fear and my heart would be so convicted and I'd worry so much that if I don't get on track fast, I would be drifting further and further.. Of course, there were times I was stuck with the same problem and temptations for months and years but I was clear it was a wrong thing and God wasn't please and hence, I continue to make the effort to change and ask God to help..
Recently, I realised that some young people didn't feel some things were not right and reason was everyone does that in sch. That was a shock to me. Satan was good at confusing the minds of our young people and messing with their hearts. Satan is stepping up to make sure he gets more people down to join him and I started evaluating myself and my minstry, am I stepping up to fight it out? Am I doing more to counter him?
With all these happening, I really wondered..
Am I not firm enough?
Am I not emphasizing the importance of God's Word and Christlike-ness enough?
Am I not letting God prune me enough to display and be a life testimony for God?
I really hope everyone can work hard together to really be on guard...
I seriously dislike what the devil is doing with my young people.
RAHH.
I got really depressed at the end of the whole process.
They are not the same passionate young people who told me they are gonna be a great testimony for God, shining for Him with their life testimony. Although I know, I should be expecting some difference, I wasn't that prepared I guess.
Being in the youth ministry for so long, looking at the youths grow from when we first took them in after CW, Elvin and I always feel like parents to every single one of them. When they overcome, we rejoice madly! When they fall, we hope we can always cushion every single one of them. In the process of them growing and finding directions, we hope we could guide them or give some advice. When they need a listening ear or a shoulder, our phones are never switched off.
Some told me, things are different now. The young people nowadays don't think like in my era. But I really think nothing should have changed in terms of thinking and mindset as our thinking and mindset is not determined or affected by how the world thinks. Everything is clear, no grey area.
I remembered when I did something wrong that's not abiding in the Word of God, I would fear and my heart would be so convicted and I'd worry so much that if I don't get on track fast, I would be drifting further and further.. Of course, there were times I was stuck with the same problem and temptations for months and years but I was clear it was a wrong thing and God wasn't please and hence, I continue to make the effort to change and ask God to help..
Recently, I realised that some young people didn't feel some things were not right and reason was everyone does that in sch. That was a shock to me. Satan was good at confusing the minds of our young people and messing with their hearts. Satan is stepping up to make sure he gets more people down to join him and I started evaluating myself and my minstry, am I stepping up to fight it out? Am I doing more to counter him?
With all these happening, I really wondered..
Am I not firm enough?
Am I not emphasizing the importance of God's Word and Christlike-ness enough?
Am I not letting God prune me enough to display and be a life testimony for God?
I really hope everyone can work hard together to really be on guard...
I seriously dislike what the devil is doing with my young people.
RAHH.
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