Friday, October 22, 2004

How lovely is your dwelling place
O Lord Almighty!
My soul yearns and even faints,
For the courts of the Lord.
My heart and flesh cry out
For the living God.

Even the sparrow has found a home,
and the swallow a nest for herself,
where she may have her young-
a place near your altar,

O Lord Almighty, my King and my God.
Blessed are those who dwell in your house
They are ever praising You
Blessed are those whose strength is in You,
who have set yheir hearts on pilgrimage.
As they pass through the Valley of Baca,
they make it a place of springs.
The autumn rains also cover it with pools.
They go from strength to strenth,
till each appears before God in Zion.

Hear my prayer,
O Lord God Almighty.
Listen to me, O God of Jacob.
Look upon Your shield, O God.
look with favour on your annointed one.

Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere.
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
For the Lord God is a sun and shield
the Lord bestows favour and honour,
no good things does he withhold
from those whose walk is blameless.

O Lord Almighty,
blessed is the man who trust in You...

Psalm 84

Monday, October 04, 2004

ok.. i'm back. =)

Prelims results are more or less out. By raw score, all my subjects improved by 1 grade. So maybe after moderation, might up a lil more cos some sub's score is like 59 type. =) All in all, thank God for this grace and faithfulness.. =)

Today marks EXACTLY 1 mth to my A's. i.e 30days. And I've godzillion amt of content still not at my finger tips. Knowing is one thing but fully understanding it and vomitting it out again onto my scripts during exams is a different case totally. Guess.. I need to work even harder on that.. For the first time, I'm deeply traumatised by how scary exams can be.. Seriously, studied a lot but dunno what to throw in as answers, blank mind last min, cannot finish the paper, false understanding of the Qns,... =)

Anyway, all i hope for now is just PEACE. No one bothering me. No one talking and complaining. No one interferring with my life. I just wanna finish my A's safely. That's all I wanna do. I dun wanna be like someone i know of (He gave me advice) who screwed up his major exams cos of these nonsensical probs that he put on himself. For me, maybe i didn't handle it well enough and so pple can get hold of something and slam me. Stinks.

But above all, I do believe God is gonna deliver me of which i need to do my part as well.. I wanna have my confidence and self worth in God.. In Him, I find my PEACE and assurance..

"Lord, draw me back to you again.. Let me not be blinded or deafen by all that is occuring.. Send someone, Lord, to be a friend, a support and confidant. Give me, Lord, strength to carry on.. Give me a home where I find rest. Lord, never forsake me, I plead... All I need is You. All I have is You."