I'm screaming loudly.
No one heard it.
I'm crying bitterly.
No one wiped my tears.
I want to learn to depend on Him.
I want to hear His voice.
I want to feel Him.
Come....
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
Woo.. HAven't blog for more than a wk~! ok... One reason is that i'm lazy and the other is i simply dunno what to write! not that i dun have anything to update but just dunno how to gather my thoughts... Anyway, since i have more than an hour now before my next lesson and having gotten a complain from my beloved nagger, shirley, I shall blog! =)
So much for the crappy intro and i'm stuck AGAIN... duh... and now i only have 20min left.. I think i should just give up.. Wanted to write abt something serious which i have been struggling with and have yet to convince myself but i need time to generate my thoughts.. think i'd just write abt my msia trip yesterday...
ok.. basically, I went back to msia really early yesterday morning like 6am to make my passport cos expire liao... (dun ask me how come no sch.) For the first time, i'm gonna spend time with my dad alone. Was rather worried the night before as i was afraid that we'd have nothing to say to each other but still everything went on fine. =)
It first started with the realisation of the change of routes at the customs which caused us to drive in circles for a while before giving up and driving around to look for alternative routes. hehez.. To make things worse, all the road signs were in Malay and I DUN UNDERSTAND A SINGLE THING let alone help my dad to find the place... =(
However, we still made it there lah. Then was there for near 3 hrs which was considered quite fast liao cos normally it'd take a whole day! We just chit chatted a bit while waiting loh.. mum and sis called also.. time passed quite fast actually. =)
Then we went for lunch near the customs cos my dad said that years ago when he used to go there to change money, there's a VERY nice noodle house and he loved it a lot.. so we went food searching and realised that they have shifted.. argh.. so we went to try out this herbal roasted duck. Quite nice though.. we stayed there quite a while to chit chat.
Though my dad nv study a lot last time, i realised that his ideas are all very new and practical. As he told me abt some business strategies and how to study market trends, they are actually stuffs in my econs text bk and things that my lecturers said before, just that his was in his own terms, no technical terms like LDMR or whatever. I was impressed. =) But all these, he learns through yrs of hardwork in his business and his observations. I really believe that if dad has studied more, he'd be even more successful than now! ok.. I think dad is successful now mah...
Alright... then dad had to rush back to KT cos he still had lotsa work to do... So he gave me Rm100 and dropped me at city square for me to shop and i'll go back spore myself lah. Not bad eh... I needed a pair of shoes...
Ok.. with the money in hand, i went to PADINI. It's the biggest shop in city square i think. One stop. I bought a pair of shoes and 2 tops. Dun doubt the quality k? It is good quality one. The shoes i saw them in spore before but i thought it was rather ex and i got them for Rm29.90! which is abt S$14. lalala.. =) Then I walked pass this ethnic accessories shop.. very cool!! and i bought a ring. ALRIGHT PPLE, ALL THESE 4 ITEMS FOR JUST Rm100(S$50)!!! really cheap sia...
hehez.. kk.. time's gonna be up soon have to go for my 3 loooooooong chinese periods. I nv memorise the 3poems that i'm SUPPOSE to... =P
Oh ya, I'd be going JB on Friday again to retrieve my passport but this time dun need to wake up early and i dun have sch that day~~!!! lala.. anyone wanna join me?! I know Charlotte has to ask her mum... dun think she can tho... Singaporean parents very protective... =)
P/S: I WENT SWIMMING YESTERDAY AFTER SO LONG~! 14laps! =)
So much for the crappy intro and i'm stuck AGAIN... duh... and now i only have 20min left.. I think i should just give up.. Wanted to write abt something serious which i have been struggling with and have yet to convince myself but i need time to generate my thoughts.. think i'd just write abt my msia trip yesterday...
ok.. basically, I went back to msia really early yesterday morning like 6am to make my passport cos expire liao... (dun ask me how come no sch.) For the first time, i'm gonna spend time with my dad alone. Was rather worried the night before as i was afraid that we'd have nothing to say to each other but still everything went on fine. =)
It first started with the realisation of the change of routes at the customs which caused us to drive in circles for a while before giving up and driving around to look for alternative routes. hehez.. To make things worse, all the road signs were in Malay and I DUN UNDERSTAND A SINGLE THING let alone help my dad to find the place... =(
However, we still made it there lah. Then was there for near 3 hrs which was considered quite fast liao cos normally it'd take a whole day! We just chit chatted a bit while waiting loh.. mum and sis called also.. time passed quite fast actually. =)
Then we went for lunch near the customs cos my dad said that years ago when he used to go there to change money, there's a VERY nice noodle house and he loved it a lot.. so we went food searching and realised that they have shifted.. argh.. so we went to try out this herbal roasted duck. Quite nice though.. we stayed there quite a while to chit chat.
Though my dad nv study a lot last time, i realised that his ideas are all very new and practical. As he told me abt some business strategies and how to study market trends, they are actually stuffs in my econs text bk and things that my lecturers said before, just that his was in his own terms, no technical terms like LDMR or whatever. I was impressed. =) But all these, he learns through yrs of hardwork in his business and his observations. I really believe that if dad has studied more, he'd be even more successful than now! ok.. I think dad is successful now mah...
Alright... then dad had to rush back to KT cos he still had lotsa work to do... So he gave me Rm100 and dropped me at city square for me to shop and i'll go back spore myself lah. Not bad eh... I needed a pair of shoes...
Ok.. with the money in hand, i went to PADINI. It's the biggest shop in city square i think. One stop. I bought a pair of shoes and 2 tops. Dun doubt the quality k? It is good quality one. The shoes i saw them in spore before but i thought it was rather ex and i got them for Rm29.90! which is abt S$14. lalala.. =) Then I walked pass this ethnic accessories shop.. very cool!! and i bought a ring. ALRIGHT PPLE, ALL THESE 4 ITEMS FOR JUST Rm100(S$50)!!! really cheap sia...
hehez.. kk.. time's gonna be up soon have to go for my 3 loooooooong chinese periods. I nv memorise the 3poems that i'm SUPPOSE to... =P
Oh ya, I'd be going JB on Friday again to retrieve my passport but this time dun need to wake up early and i dun have sch that day~~!!! lala.. anyone wanna join me?! I know Charlotte has to ask her mum... dun think she can tho... Singaporean parents very protective... =)
P/S: I WENT SWIMMING YESTERDAY AFTER SO LONG~! 14laps! =)
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
Ok.. below is a song i've been hearing for the whole morning. Like it. =)
Alright.. I'm home AGAIN. Haven't fully recover yet... This is the 2nd day in a row i'm not in sch.. but still can't escape work lah.. cos alvyn just msged and i have to go get cardboard and styrofoam to do some openhouse booth deco for ROMANIS. Hai~ Have to drag myself outta house... a bit weak.. to make things worse, JE popular is under renovation.. hai~!! Help!!
Anyway, finally had a decent meal last evening cos ELVIN AND QIUYI brought food over!! lalala... so nice of them. Actually desmond offered to buy lunch also but i was sleeping when he msged... Thanks though!! ok.. elvin also bought some herbal tea bags.. which i think stinks... okok.. I shall be more appreciative.. =) They stayed for near an hour. just chit chatted and watch Holland V!! haha...
Qiuyi said that she just realised qiuxia and jing jing very identical in character. Elvin and i were like, "you only realise NOW?!" duh....
After they left, Tino called. Chatted for a while then he went gym.
The new 9pm show is SOOOOO NICE!!! WONG LILIN IS SOOOOO CUTE!! Can watch lah. but i dun like Chen han wei's character in the show leh... I also dun really like Edmund Chen... Keep thinking he's too old for that character.. in the end, feel as though he's acting cute.. hai~
ok pple... I went blogskin searching for near an hour and found nothing suitable. There's this totally black one that i like but i think rather depressing. So in the end, no changes. duh.
k... i need rest again.. later got to go out to buy the materials... AGAIN, hopefully will have someone visiting!! =) *hint*
Alright.. I'm home AGAIN. Haven't fully recover yet... This is the 2nd day in a row i'm not in sch.. but still can't escape work lah.. cos alvyn just msged and i have to go get cardboard and styrofoam to do some openhouse booth deco for ROMANIS. Hai~ Have to drag myself outta house... a bit weak.. to make things worse, JE popular is under renovation.. hai~!! Help!!
Anyway, finally had a decent meal last evening cos ELVIN AND QIUYI brought food over!! lalala... so nice of them. Actually desmond offered to buy lunch also but i was sleeping when he msged... Thanks though!! ok.. elvin also bought some herbal tea bags.. which i think stinks... okok.. I shall be more appreciative.. =) They stayed for near an hour. just chit chatted and watch Holland V!! haha...
Qiuyi said that she just realised qiuxia and jing jing very identical in character. Elvin and i were like, "you only realise NOW?!" duh....
After they left, Tino called. Chatted for a while then he went gym.
The new 9pm show is SOOOOO NICE!!! WONG LILIN IS SOOOOO CUTE!! Can watch lah. but i dun like Chen han wei's character in the show leh... I also dun really like Edmund Chen... Keep thinking he's too old for that character.. in the end, feel as though he's acting cute.. hai~
ok pple... I went blogskin searching for near an hour and found nothing suitable. There's this totally black one that i like but i think rather depressing. So in the end, no changes. duh.
k... i need rest again.. later got to go out to buy the materials... AGAIN, hopefully will have someone visiting!! =) *hint*
TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH
Love unfailing, overtaking my heart.
You take me in.
Finding peace again, fear is lost in all You are.
And I would give the world to tell Your story,
'cause I know that You've called me, I know that You've called me.
I've lost myself for good within Your promise
and I won't hide it, I won't hide it.
Jesus I believe in You, and I would go,
to the ends of the earth, to the ends of the earth.
For You alone are the Son of God,
and all the world will see that You are God,
that You are God.
Love unfailing, overtaking my heart.
You take me in.
Finding peace again, fear is lost in all You are.
And I would give the world to tell Your story,
'cause I know that You've called me, I know that You've called me.
I've lost myself for good within Your promise
and I won't hide it, I won't hide it.
Jesus I believe in You, and I would go,
to the ends of the earth, to the ends of the earth.
For You alone are the Son of God,
and all the world will see that You are God,
that You are God.
Just trying out...
Monday, October 20, 2003
everyone's blog is getting nicer and nicer... I'm gonna do something to mine too!! Grr...
Anyway, am at home now not because i play truancy again but because I'm SICK. bleahz... I thought i was going to die last night! haha.. but i survived no matter what...
3pm
-just running nose.
5pm
-MORE running nose
5:30pm
- MORE MORE running nose and feeling SLIGHTly cold.
6pm
- first temperature check, 37.1degrees.
6:30pm
- feeling extremely cold, wrapped myself in sweater and blanket.
- 2nd temperature check, 37.8degrees.
7pm
- practically shivering, but still eating sugar crackers.
- 3rd temperature check, 38.1degrees!!!!!
7:15pm
- cried cos something happened and started having headache.
- 4th temperature check, 38.6degrees!!!
7:30pm
- mum and sis returned home with dinner. They bought fruit soup for me. (yucks!) And also some Chinese medication. Ok.. I'm allergic to panadol, aspirin, paracetamol(sp?),...
-5th temperature check, still 38.6degrees.
7:30pm to 9pm
-laid on the sofa, wrapped up in blanket and sweater.
-6th temperature check 38.3degrees.
-mum said once hit 39degrees, go hospital. then she went back msia...
-keep changing ice packs.
9pm
-cannot finish PW work... Can't read cos the words seems to be dancing and nothing goes into my mind. decided to call mr lee to see if can postpone the deadline for PW file... BUT he said cannot...
-I pulled myself outta the sofa and started pia-ing my PW with a fever. Handwriting was stinking ugly cos my hands were trembling... Had to annotate 5sets of articles of average 7 pages each... And write the analysis for all 5. darn...
-Siting called and we contacted Charlotte to see if she can pick it up for my grp this morning and pass to siting and thank God, she agreed... =)
-pia-ing continues until 11pm...
-no temperature check. no time.
-ice packs still
11pm
- finished the last piece.
- more headache.
- eyes are swollen due to either fever or medication.
- still ice packs.
- 7th temperature check, 38.1degrees.
11:30pm- finished packing the folder and informed siting of the contents.
- Sis warned me not to spread to her cos she's pia-ing her experiment and thesis.
- John set a radius of 3metres. He's gonna have his O's mah.
- I'm quarantined in my mum's room. -sob-
- 8th temperature check, 38.2degrees.
12am.
- sms sms sms. =)
- lying on my mum's king size bed, wrapped up once again. feeling sleepy finally... but still feeling rather uncomforable...
- fully equiped with tissue paper, dustbin, water bottle, bible and thermometer.
- drank a cup of herbal tea (ling yang)
- 9th temperature check, 38.0degrees.
12:30am
- knocked off. =)
12:30-8am
- woke up NUMEROUS times...
- this was the period of time when i really thought i'm gonna die. haha.. cos everyone is sleeping and i'm alone in my mum's room and I was so uncomfortable... fever, flu, feeling cold and warm at the same time... BUT God is faithful.. He kept me in His hands... =)
8am
- 10th temperature check, 37.4degrees... (thank God... ^-^)
- sis preparing to head back to sch.. Suddenly realised i'm gonna be alone at home, without food! haha...
8:30am
- sis went down to buy cambell soup and peel fresh apple juice. That would be my lunch.
- was thinking of asking somebody to send food over leh... But everyone is in sch. hai~
- 11th temperature check, 37.2degrees. (I'm getting better!)
- BUT headache is getting worse... argh. (sis say had high fever last night and so it's normal to have headache.)
9am
- online!!! Nothing to do and have no strength to do anything anyway.
- found a box of choc fruit cake in the fridge. Ate a small slice with apple juice. it's not very nice...
- my newest best friend, derek is entertaining me via sms now. BUT he's only irritating me!! telling me he's walking around to kill time and blah. MEANIE!!!
- 12th temperature check, 37.1degrees...
10am.
- got to rest for a while.. getting tired.. really feel weak sia!!
- HOPING THAT SOMEONE WILL READ THIS ENTRY SOON AND CONTACT ME!! TO ASK ME IF I NEED LUNCH!!! AMEN! =)
Anyway, am at home now not because i play truancy again but because I'm SICK. bleahz... I thought i was going to die last night! haha.. but i survived no matter what...
3pm
-just running nose.
5pm
-MORE running nose
5:30pm
- MORE MORE running nose and feeling SLIGHTly cold.
6pm
- first temperature check, 37.1degrees.
6:30pm
- feeling extremely cold, wrapped myself in sweater and blanket.
- 2nd temperature check, 37.8degrees.
7pm
- practically shivering, but still eating sugar crackers.
- 3rd temperature check, 38.1degrees!!!!!
7:15pm
- cried cos something happened and started having headache.
- 4th temperature check, 38.6degrees!!!
7:30pm
- mum and sis returned home with dinner. They bought fruit soup for me. (yucks!) And also some Chinese medication. Ok.. I'm allergic to panadol, aspirin, paracetamol(sp?),...
-5th temperature check, still 38.6degrees.
7:30pm to 9pm
-laid on the sofa, wrapped up in blanket and sweater.
-6th temperature check 38.3degrees.
-mum said once hit 39degrees, go hospital. then she went back msia...
-keep changing ice packs.
9pm
-cannot finish PW work... Can't read cos the words seems to be dancing and nothing goes into my mind. decided to call mr lee to see if can postpone the deadline for PW file... BUT he said cannot...
-I pulled myself outta the sofa and started pia-ing my PW with a fever. Handwriting was stinking ugly cos my hands were trembling... Had to annotate 5sets of articles of average 7 pages each... And write the analysis for all 5. darn...
-Siting called and we contacted Charlotte to see if she can pick it up for my grp this morning and pass to siting and thank God, she agreed... =)
-pia-ing continues until 11pm...
-no temperature check. no time.
-ice packs still
11pm
- finished the last piece.
- more headache.
- eyes are swollen due to either fever or medication.
- still ice packs.
- 7th temperature check, 38.1degrees.
11:30pm- finished packing the folder and informed siting of the contents.
- Sis warned me not to spread to her cos she's pia-ing her experiment and thesis.
- John set a radius of 3metres. He's gonna have his O's mah.
- I'm quarantined in my mum's room. -sob-
- 8th temperature check, 38.2degrees.
12am.
- sms sms sms. =)
- lying on my mum's king size bed, wrapped up once again. feeling sleepy finally... but still feeling rather uncomforable...
- fully equiped with tissue paper, dustbin, water bottle, bible and thermometer.
- drank a cup of herbal tea (ling yang)
- 9th temperature check, 38.0degrees.
12:30am
- knocked off. =)
12:30-8am
- woke up NUMEROUS times...
- this was the period of time when i really thought i'm gonna die. haha.. cos everyone is sleeping and i'm alone in my mum's room and I was so uncomfortable... fever, flu, feeling cold and warm at the same time... BUT God is faithful.. He kept me in His hands... =)
8am
- 10th temperature check, 37.4degrees... (thank God... ^-^)
- sis preparing to head back to sch.. Suddenly realised i'm gonna be alone at home, without food! haha...
8:30am
- sis went down to buy cambell soup and peel fresh apple juice. That would be my lunch.
- was thinking of asking somebody to send food over leh... But everyone is in sch. hai~
- 11th temperature check, 37.2degrees. (I'm getting better!)
- BUT headache is getting worse... argh. (sis say had high fever last night and so it's normal to have headache.)
9am
- online!!! Nothing to do and have no strength to do anything anyway.
- found a box of choc fruit cake in the fridge. Ate a small slice with apple juice. it's not very nice...
- my newest best friend, derek is entertaining me via sms now. BUT he's only irritating me!! telling me he's walking around to kill time and blah. MEANIE!!!
- 12th temperature check, 37.1degrees...
10am.
- got to rest for a while.. getting tired.. really feel weak sia!!
- HOPING THAT SOMEONE WILL READ THIS ENTRY SOON AND CONTACT ME!! TO ASK ME IF I NEED LUNCH!!! AMEN! =)
Saturday, October 18, 2003
My nose is running!! man.. i hate being sick... I WANT TO RECOVER!!! hehez.. pple pls pray for me ya!? =)
Anyway, enjoyed myself thoroughly today with my bro! We went ACJC for their openhouse and stayed there for near 2hours!! haha... just walked around, talked to my classmates, take photo, watched some performances,... Not bad lah.. this yr's more fun and interesting than last yr's. Too bad my bro not planning to go ACJC lah.. =( Now all my ex-classmates know who's my bro liao! Tim Chek say my bro look like my boyfriend. haha.. my bro even requested to see Alex Kwan!! haha.. BUT I really saw MANY friends! SO happy!! lalala... =)
kk.. My current state of health is bad... really gotta rest.. still have to rush PW. I HATE PW!! It is totally nonsensical!!!! Grr...
Anyway, enjoyed myself thoroughly today with my bro! We went ACJC for their openhouse and stayed there for near 2hours!! haha... just walked around, talked to my classmates, take photo, watched some performances,... Not bad lah.. this yr's more fun and interesting than last yr's. Too bad my bro not planning to go ACJC lah.. =( Now all my ex-classmates know who's my bro liao! Tim Chek say my bro look like my boyfriend. haha.. my bro even requested to see Alex Kwan!! haha.. BUT I really saw MANY friends! SO happy!! lalala... =)
kk.. My current state of health is bad... really gotta rest.. still have to rush PW. I HATE PW!! It is totally nonsensical!!!! Grr...
God rocks~! lalala...
I'm sitting here, telling myself i need to blog BUT i have nothing in my mind right now. =) Still having a headache. Dunno from what... low blood pressure again? ok.. i admit. I didn't touch my medicine at all. =P
k... I watched Matchstick men on Wed with my newest best friend, Derek. haha.. the show was good. The ending is amazing! k.. shall not say too much.. but it's really worth a watch! =) Anyway, the most hilarious part was after the movie... Both of us like running around looking for TOILET! then 6th floor's out of bounds, we have to go find another one then keep saying to each other "cannot tahan liao".! haha.. ok.. like siao pple like that. =)
alright, yesterday was Jason's big bang but apparently, my whole net went down to help out. A total of 13 visitors including my net's new visitor, Daniel. It was rather fun cos i knew some of them already cos they are mostly my brother's frens and all of them were not some dao pple but instead, even suan and bully me when we played the "polar bear game" hosted by Daniel. Haha... This game is really interesting. next time must try again. They actually played the game twice!! after makaning, my bro suggested to play it again cos he was out in the first round for both times we played it! haha... kk.. I think everyone enjoyed themselves lah.. BUT most importantly, thank God for bringing them cos initially, Joash only invited 2 of his friends when it's supposedly his bday party lah.. in the end, out of nowhere, my brother's 10 friends appeared!!! =) i think even jason was shocked! He was like whispering to me what should we do now blah blah blah... God is faithful always! =)
Alright.. I have to get ready liao... HAve to give tuition then meet my brother for lunch then go ACJC's openhouse with him. He wanna go look see look see then i can visit my 1st 3mths' friends as well... miss em leh! =)
tata!
I'm sitting here, telling myself i need to blog BUT i have nothing in my mind right now. =) Still having a headache. Dunno from what... low blood pressure again? ok.. i admit. I didn't touch my medicine at all. =P
k... I watched Matchstick men on Wed with my newest best friend, Derek. haha.. the show was good. The ending is amazing! k.. shall not say too much.. but it's really worth a watch! =) Anyway, the most hilarious part was after the movie... Both of us like running around looking for TOILET! then 6th floor's out of bounds, we have to go find another one then keep saying to each other "cannot tahan liao".! haha.. ok.. like siao pple like that. =)
alright, yesterday was Jason's big bang but apparently, my whole net went down to help out. A total of 13 visitors including my net's new visitor, Daniel. It was rather fun cos i knew some of them already cos they are mostly my brother's frens and all of them were not some dao pple but instead, even suan and bully me when we played the "polar bear game" hosted by Daniel. Haha... This game is really interesting. next time must try again. They actually played the game twice!! after makaning, my bro suggested to play it again cos he was out in the first round for both times we played it! haha... kk.. I think everyone enjoyed themselves lah.. BUT most importantly, thank God for bringing them cos initially, Joash only invited 2 of his friends when it's supposedly his bday party lah.. in the end, out of nowhere, my brother's 10 friends appeared!!! =) i think even jason was shocked! He was like whispering to me what should we do now blah blah blah... God is faithful always! =)
Alright.. I have to get ready liao... HAve to give tuition then meet my brother for lunch then go ACJC's openhouse with him. He wanna go look see look see then i can visit my 1st 3mths' friends as well... miss em leh! =)
tata!
Monday, October 13, 2003
I thank God for my legs.
I went to watch ASEAN WHEELCHAIR BASKETBALL CHAMPIONSHIPS TODAY. Despite their imperfection physically and some disabilities, they overcame it and are able to represent their country in para competition. I'm very encouraged esp when they fall off their wheelchair during the game and climbed back onto it all by themselves... I look at myself. So many times, we're complaining about the problems in our lives, totally dwelling in our own misery and set-backs. These people can't use their legs, some doesn't even have legs BUT they chose to get out of their self-pity and regain their confidence and self-esteem. Though, of course, it requires time but they found their own share of joy and satisfaction. They found their own sky.
I just want to encourage you all to come down and give them your support.. They were really happy to have us cheering them on today and they fought hard for their country. Trust me, it's worth watching. It's really exciting. =)
ASEAN WHEELCHAIR BASKETBALL CHAMPIONSHIPS
Time: 5pm-8:30pm (14/10) 1pm-5pm (15/10)
Venue: Jurong East Sports Hall.
I went to watch ASEAN WHEELCHAIR BASKETBALL CHAMPIONSHIPS TODAY. Despite their imperfection physically and some disabilities, they overcame it and are able to represent their country in para competition. I'm very encouraged esp when they fall off their wheelchair during the game and climbed back onto it all by themselves... I look at myself. So many times, we're complaining about the problems in our lives, totally dwelling in our own misery and set-backs. These people can't use their legs, some doesn't even have legs BUT they chose to get out of their self-pity and regain their confidence and self-esteem. Though, of course, it requires time but they found their own share of joy and satisfaction. They found their own sky.
I just want to encourage you all to come down and give them your support.. They were really happy to have us cheering them on today and they fought hard for their country. Trust me, it's worth watching. It's really exciting. =)
ASEAN WHEELCHAIR BASKETBALL CHAMPIONSHIPS
Time: 5pm-8:30pm (14/10) 1pm-5pm (15/10)
Venue: Jurong East Sports Hall.
Have quite a number of things to update but little time lah...
k.. firstly...
Tino received salvation on Sat and I was really very happy. I could practically see angels rejoicing in heaven for this new soul in His kingdom. =) Man... God is awesome! ^-^
Tino's coming to the LOrd is especially significant to me because it has been so long since i have another friend receiving salvation... Really get disheartened at times when people just keep rejecting ur invitation to church or even if visited service but refuses to get to know God better... Tino's salvation really let me feel that indeed God is faithful and it is true that even when u're tired and weary but u still choose to serve God, He will bless u in return. In many folds. He is true and never failing. =)
When Tino went out with Bro Stanley to fill in the salvation card, we continue worshipping God and I just felt tears in my eyes. I was really overjoyed because my friend had just been pulled away from the fires of hell. I remembered during last year's youth camp, that eric and sharon prayed for this extreme joy and heartache for the souls. After so long, I felt it again...
Sunday morning service was again on SOWING and SOULS. What is our purpose on Earth? We really need to recap again. Many we have fallen into this comfort zone when we feel that we enjoying fellow Christians' company and praising and worshipping God is sufficient. But it's NOT. What about the others? What about those who are longing for love? Unfailing and everlasting love? Are we acting selfishly?
I WANT to understand my purpose in this world which is to make disciples to the ends of the earth.
k.. firstly...
Tino received salvation on Sat and I was really very happy. I could practically see angels rejoicing in heaven for this new soul in His kingdom. =) Man... God is awesome! ^-^
Tino's coming to the LOrd is especially significant to me because it has been so long since i have another friend receiving salvation... Really get disheartened at times when people just keep rejecting ur invitation to church or even if visited service but refuses to get to know God better... Tino's salvation really let me feel that indeed God is faithful and it is true that even when u're tired and weary but u still choose to serve God, He will bless u in return. In many folds. He is true and never failing. =)
When Tino went out with Bro Stanley to fill in the salvation card, we continue worshipping God and I just felt tears in my eyes. I was really overjoyed because my friend had just been pulled away from the fires of hell. I remembered during last year's youth camp, that eric and sharon prayed for this extreme joy and heartache for the souls. After so long, I felt it again...
Sunday morning service was again on SOWING and SOULS. What is our purpose on Earth? We really need to recap again. Many we have fallen into this comfort zone when we feel that we enjoying fellow Christians' company and praising and worshipping God is sufficient. But it's NOT. What about the others? What about those who are longing for love? Unfailing and everlasting love? Are we acting selfishly?
I WANT to understand my purpose in this world which is to make disciples to the ends of the earth.
Saturday, October 11, 2003
OCS Commissioning ball 2003
It was on a whole very poshy and everyone was very well dressed. I think i really dun suit this kinda functions... =( Anyway, my sis went as my brother's the other friend's date. It was really a night when the guys were behaving really gentlemanly. Jackson (my sis's date) was really very sweet. served my sis very well.. pull chair, serve food.. Tino... He kept daydreaming. haha.. in the end, most of my food were served by either Jackson, my sis or my kor.. Until a pt of time, they started HINTING him really obviously in front of me.. But maybe Tino was very tired also lah.. He was there since 1pm and had to rush down to pick me up then back to hotel again. He;s in the committee. =)
There was free photo taking. We went to take and it was rather fun lah. Got one instant shot on the spot and Tino will collect the others when they call. Quite nice lah. =)
Anyway, someone proposed last night! Ok.. a few couples were dragged on stage to play games... then the games was what would u say if u're proposing.. then when came to their turn, we thought still playing mah.. but apparently, he came up with flowers then he dug into his pocket and really revealed a ring.. the girl was so shocked.. she even cried. then he proposed and she agreed.. they kissed on stage! very sweet! very touching! =) they were together for 7 yrs. =) At that pt of time, i also wanna get married.. lalala...
kk... got to prepare the house for my sister's big bang before her friends come over. Still have edge.. bringing tino.
He told her his feelings but she rejected him. Told him her priorities and he was understanding. She admired this quality and indeed when it's time to let go, one should be willing to.. He later said that he sort of shouldn't have asked her to be his girlfriend cos he is going to disrupt to futher his studies in states... Very sensible.. They are still friends. Things are always better to talk it out clearly than to leave it dangling in the air. he said in his page, "I didn't get the reply I hoped for, but I was unusually happy, for some reason :P I felt that loving someone no longer has to mean to be with someone, I felt so happy that she could make that decision. I was partially smiling all night! Sometimes, it is not all about giving in, sometimes it is also about giving up. I respect her, I respect her decision".
It was on a whole very poshy and everyone was very well dressed. I think i really dun suit this kinda functions... =( Anyway, my sis went as my brother's the other friend's date. It was really a night when the guys were behaving really gentlemanly. Jackson (my sis's date) was really very sweet. served my sis very well.. pull chair, serve food.. Tino... He kept daydreaming. haha.. in the end, most of my food were served by either Jackson, my sis or my kor.. Until a pt of time, they started HINTING him really obviously in front of me.. But maybe Tino was very tired also lah.. He was there since 1pm and had to rush down to pick me up then back to hotel again. He;s in the committee. =)
There was free photo taking. We went to take and it was rather fun lah. Got one instant shot on the spot and Tino will collect the others when they call. Quite nice lah. =)
Anyway, someone proposed last night! Ok.. a few couples were dragged on stage to play games... then the games was what would u say if u're proposing.. then when came to their turn, we thought still playing mah.. but apparently, he came up with flowers then he dug into his pocket and really revealed a ring.. the girl was so shocked.. she even cried. then he proposed and she agreed.. they kissed on stage! very sweet! very touching! =) they were together for 7 yrs. =) At that pt of time, i also wanna get married.. lalala...
kk... got to prepare the house for my sister's big bang before her friends come over. Still have edge.. bringing tino.
He told her his feelings but she rejected him. Told him her priorities and he was understanding. She admired this quality and indeed when it's time to let go, one should be willing to.. He later said that he sort of shouldn't have asked her to be his girlfriend cos he is going to disrupt to futher his studies in states... Very sensible.. They are still friends. Things are always better to talk it out clearly than to leave it dangling in the air. he said in his page, "I didn't get the reply I hoped for, but I was unusually happy, for some reason :P I felt that loving someone no longer has to mean to be with someone, I felt so happy that she could make that decision. I was partially smiling all night! Sometimes, it is not all about giving in, sometimes it is also about giving up. I respect her, I respect her decision".
Friday, October 10, 2003
I'm so tired now. Suppose to sleep in today but was awake at 7am cos my kor was noisy. Tried to go back to sleep but to no avail.. hai~ slept at 1:30am last night somemore... duh. Going to sch in a while for house council meeting then rehearsal for Current Affairs quiz.
Yesterday was rather fruitful i think. After paper, went town to meet Charlene, Siting and Shanny with Rebecca. We were suppose to pluck eyebrows and test out the eyelash volumiser. Apparently wrong timing lah.. The mother not free... but she did the eyelash thing on me.. woah! Really lengthened and volumised my eyelashed! haha.. she wanna lend me for tonight's ball but after trying on the other eye MYSELF, can't get the effect AT ALL. gave up.
Then went peace centre to meet my cousin. She's very nice! She brought 3 dresses, numerous sets of accessories as in necklaces and stuff, a shawl and 1 pair of shoes! Then we were matching the dresses with her conference room. So fun! Woo... then her boyfirend drove us to taka in his blue sports car! Rebecca and i really think the car is darn nice! =)
Anyway, went taka to meet tino. erm.. he lost his way again. Rebecca keep saying must minus points liao! haha.. then all three of us went Yoshinoya to eat. Rebecca and I were very tired liao... Ultimate was when rebecca was too tired to eat her food! Despite complaining that she's very hungry since 6:30pm. lalala... SHopped for shoes after that. Got it within 15min. Having becca is a bliss! haha..
Then proceeded to Paragon's baker's Inn to meet qiuyi and richardson. These two ah.. Eat so much already still wanna eat desserts. Ask me over to help. tsk tsk.. but the cheese cake is tooooooo sinful.. very rich. really tasty but i was full lah. =) THEN WE WAITED 30MIN FOR THE CAB!!! Grr...
anyway, i'll update later lah... i gtg for THE very THE meeting.
Yesterday was rather fruitful i think. After paper, went town to meet Charlene, Siting and Shanny with Rebecca. We were suppose to pluck eyebrows and test out the eyelash volumiser. Apparently wrong timing lah.. The mother not free... but she did the eyelash thing on me.. woah! Really lengthened and volumised my eyelashed! haha.. she wanna lend me for tonight's ball but after trying on the other eye MYSELF, can't get the effect AT ALL. gave up.
Then went peace centre to meet my cousin. She's very nice! She brought 3 dresses, numerous sets of accessories as in necklaces and stuff, a shawl and 1 pair of shoes! Then we were matching the dresses with her conference room. So fun! Woo... then her boyfirend drove us to taka in his blue sports car! Rebecca and i really think the car is darn nice! =)
Anyway, went taka to meet tino. erm.. he lost his way again. Rebecca keep saying must minus points liao! haha.. then all three of us went Yoshinoya to eat. Rebecca and I were very tired liao... Ultimate was when rebecca was too tired to eat her food! Despite complaining that she's very hungry since 6:30pm. lalala... SHopped for shoes after that. Got it within 15min. Having becca is a bliss! haha..
Then proceeded to Paragon's baker's Inn to meet qiuyi and richardson. These two ah.. Eat so much already still wanna eat desserts. Ask me over to help. tsk tsk.. but the cheese cake is tooooooo sinful.. very rich. really tasty but i was full lah. =) THEN WE WAITED 30MIN FOR THE CAB!!! Grr...
anyway, i'll update later lah... i gtg for THE very THE meeting.
Thursday, October 09, 2003
TODAY IS THE DAY TODAY IS THE DAY TODAY IS THE DAY~! lalala...
Dunno how to describe my excitement now!!! erm... though i have not taken the LAST paper yet... BUT BUT BUT!! It's ok! I'm just sooooooooooooooooooo happy that promos is coming to an end! =)
I didn't take the GSC paper yesterday. Went to see doctor and discovered that i'm have Low Blood Pressure. He gave me two days MC. Apparently he said that it is rather serious cos my blood pressure is quite low for someone of my age! So ACTUALLY today can also dun take paper BUT i'm not going to pon... Low Blood Pressure comes from tiredness, anxiety and depression! duh. I'm having none of the above leh... maybe have i also dunno lah. =)
Everyone, I've added a few new links. Can check it out! like my sis's, desmond's, derek from elim. =)
WARNING: Elvin Foong, it's time to update ur blog. lalala...
kk.. gtg liao! =) I'm so happy! woo... overjoyed~!
Dunno how to describe my excitement now!!! erm... though i have not taken the LAST paper yet... BUT BUT BUT!! It's ok! I'm just sooooooooooooooooooo happy that promos is coming to an end! =)
I didn't take the GSC paper yesterday. Went to see doctor and discovered that i'm have Low Blood Pressure. He gave me two days MC. Apparently he said that it is rather serious cos my blood pressure is quite low for someone of my age! So ACTUALLY today can also dun take paper BUT i'm not going to pon... Low Blood Pressure comes from tiredness, anxiety and depression! duh. I'm having none of the above leh... maybe have i also dunno lah. =)
Everyone, I've added a few new links. Can check it out! like my sis's, desmond's, derek from elim. =)
WARNING: Elvin Foong, it's time to update ur blog. lalala...
kk.. gtg liao! =) I'm so happy! woo... overjoyed~!
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
yup.. i think my previous entry is erm.. too over-heated. Anyway, I believe i have to be cautious as it might be through observation that pple came up with that idea. NOT considering if they actually see the whole picture when they make the comment, i still have to be careful. So for those who actually made that comment, i'm sorry for getting a bit worked up. I'll learn as time goes i think. And try standing in your shoe. yup.
Two more days. Three more papers. MY prolonged painful agony will be gone. Totally gone. Really just wanna get over and done with exams. Sux totally.
I think today's geog paper is the ultimate. 30 min after the start of paper, most of the pple around me started sleeping... Everyone just can't finish studying and maybe we still dun sense the urgency and seriousness... BUT for me, i just wanna promote and try to brush up or tie up whatever ends AFTER promos... =)
Had dinner with tino just now. (hopefully this would not bring another round of comments) Was rather fun lah. He's very lame! I was at westmall studying with becca and we met for dinner then i went home. Too tired lah.. Was awake since 5:30am this morning... Gonna sleep before 10pm today. Tomorrow still have two papers and i NEED the rest esp for tmr's papers.. namely Math and General Studies of Chinese. Dun ask me what's GSC. It's too difficult to explain. =P
The comms ball is this friday and my excitement is dying down.. not because i dun wanna go of course... =) I have been looking forward to it all this while though. ^-^ (Today's daily bread is about "power of words". ) Will be meeting Siting and Charlene after my papers on Thursday i think... They'll be finishing their paper one day earlier than me! grr.. Meeting to get some things for the ball... I only managed to get the dress that day mah...
Anyway, time's up. I need to go. Before my clothes turn into rugs or my computer turns into a box. =)
Two more days. Three more papers. MY prolonged painful agony will be gone. Totally gone. Really just wanna get over and done with exams. Sux totally.
I think today's geog paper is the ultimate. 30 min after the start of paper, most of the pple around me started sleeping... Everyone just can't finish studying and maybe we still dun sense the urgency and seriousness... BUT for me, i just wanna promote and try to brush up or tie up whatever ends AFTER promos... =)
Had dinner with tino just now. (hopefully this would not bring another round of comments) Was rather fun lah. He's very lame! I was at westmall studying with becca and we met for dinner then i went home. Too tired lah.. Was awake since 5:30am this morning... Gonna sleep before 10pm today. Tomorrow still have two papers and i NEED the rest esp for tmr's papers.. namely Math and General Studies of Chinese. Dun ask me what's GSC. It's too difficult to explain. =P
The comms ball is this friday and my excitement is dying down.. not because i dun wanna go of course... =) I have been looking forward to it all this while though. ^-^ (Today's daily bread is about "power of words". ) Will be meeting Siting and Charlene after my papers on Thursday i think... They'll be finishing their paper one day earlier than me! grr.. Meeting to get some things for the ball... I only managed to get the dress that day mah...
Anyway, time's up. I need to go. Before my clothes turn into rugs or my computer turns into a box. =)
Monday, October 06, 2003
Received a mail from Sharon saying that some have "informed" her about my boy craze. In my mind was like "huh?! boy craze?" Ok... hopefully when those pple converse with her, they were in a joking tone. I dun need another round of nonsense. period. I'm ESPECIALLY paranoid over this kinda nonsense.
Pple just enjoy talking abt it and not looking at themselves. Sometimes, we just dun see the huge pillar in our eyes but took notice of the little "toothpick" in others. duh. Maybe I shouldn't hang out with guys too much but I can be certain is that there's NOTHING going on. Plus, I can jolly well name the pple i've been spending my time with and it'll only bring down to ONE guy recently and he is ELVIN. I think elvin hangs out with other girls as well anyways. If plain fellowship is also not allowed, I'm starting to understand better why there're so many single ladies in our church liao. Quoting derek from his blog, "the tongue is a powerful weapon that can be used to raise up or tear down... "
If my boy craze is over tino, it's even more ridiculous cos we have only known each other for less than a month and have only officially met up once with my elder brother arnd. I bother to tell some and joked abt the whole incident and even portray my true excitment being able to go for a ball and jokingly entertained all with my "I wanna get married." display seems to have negative results.
I won't be surprise why more and more youths are declining from sharing esp abt BGRs.. It's really sad... I don't wanna fall into that catorgary as well. Bro willie always say accountability and transparency. But the results of that is not that pleasing actually. Pple just ENJOY thinking otherwise. =(
Anyway, tmr is the start of my whole week of day after day exams. Hopefully i'd be able to make it through through God who strengthens me and get my mind of things i'm not suppose to be thinking. Diaoz. Plus the death of my HP...
However, I totally enjoyed myself at my brother's commissioning! It was very touching esp when they threw their "caps" into the air. Woo... very cool... slow march was good! All were so stern and serious.. Pictures are up. Go visit my webshot under the album "My elder bro, david".
kk... it's back to books! coffeebean awaits me...
Pple just enjoy talking abt it and not looking at themselves. Sometimes, we just dun see the huge pillar in our eyes but took notice of the little "toothpick" in others. duh. Maybe I shouldn't hang out with guys too much but I can be certain is that there's NOTHING going on. Plus, I can jolly well name the pple i've been spending my time with and it'll only bring down to ONE guy recently and he is ELVIN. I think elvin hangs out with other girls as well anyways. If plain fellowship is also not allowed, I'm starting to understand better why there're so many single ladies in our church liao. Quoting derek from his blog, "the tongue is a powerful weapon that can be used to raise up or tear down... "
If my boy craze is over tino, it's even more ridiculous cos we have only known each other for less than a month and have only officially met up once with my elder brother arnd. I bother to tell some and joked abt the whole incident and even portray my true excitment being able to go for a ball and jokingly entertained all with my "I wanna get married." display seems to have negative results.
I won't be surprise why more and more youths are declining from sharing esp abt BGRs.. It's really sad... I don't wanna fall into that catorgary as well. Bro willie always say accountability and transparency. But the results of that is not that pleasing actually. Pple just ENJOY thinking otherwise. =(
Anyway, tmr is the start of my whole week of day after day exams. Hopefully i'd be able to make it through through God who strengthens me and get my mind of things i'm not suppose to be thinking. Diaoz. Plus the death of my HP...
However, I totally enjoyed myself at my brother's commissioning! It was very touching esp when they threw their "caps" into the air. Woo... very cool... slow march was good! All were so stern and serious.. Pictures are up. Go visit my webshot under the album "My elder bro, david".
kk... it's back to books! coffeebean awaits me...
Friday, October 03, 2003
Thursday, October 02, 2003
Anyone who reads this entry before 8am tmr, pls pray for me. My ears have been buzzing and blocked for the past few days and it's causing me to feel giddy and at the same time, very irritated. when i speak or listen to others, it's echoing... Tmr is one of my major papers and i NEED to pass it. It's economics... Something that i have been burying myself in but just can't seem to comprehen..
Thank you so much and once again, INFERNAL AFFAIRS IS SOOOOOO NICE! ^-^
Thank you so much and once again, INFERNAL AFFAIRS IS SOOOOOO NICE! ^-^
Saw something that i shouldn't and didn't want to yesterday.
I STUDIED SINCE 8am YESTERDAY! *applause* all the way until 5plus. Ok.. of course with SOME chit chatting in between with Siting and Charlene and 30min shopping for things for the ball. Then we proceeded to Plaza Singapore to meet Derek to watch.... *drums roll* INFERNAL AFFAIRS.
Hey peeps!! You all HAVE to watch the show!! You really dunno what you are missing!!!! IT'S SO STINKING NICE!!! ARGH!! I'm gonna watch it again!! lalala...
Wah... edisen chen is sooooo handsome! Whenever he appear, i'd just melt loh!! hmm... maybe this time it's not as good as the previous one BUT it's still nice! Wanted to cry a few times and really did for a particular scene... wah.. just practically couldn't breathe.. Who wants to watch again?~ Ask me ask me!! My promos ends on the 9th!
man.. i'm in a holiday or post exams mood now.. a bit or many bits worried... I don't even feel like I'm having exams! It's worrying worrying worrying.. When i did the mock paper yesterday for econs, I couldn't answer ANY of the MCQs but managed to guess the ans of a few correctly. Time is burning out. or already out. Tomorrow is my econs paper. God bless me.
P/s: I thank God for Chris. When i saw pple i'm not suppose to, he called me. Indeed I had fallen into the trap of denial. And i'm getting out of it. Thank God for divinely appointed friends- Chris!! =)
I STUDIED SINCE 8am YESTERDAY! *applause* all the way until 5plus. Ok.. of course with SOME chit chatting in between with Siting and Charlene and 30min shopping for things for the ball. Then we proceeded to Plaza Singapore to meet Derek to watch.... *drums roll* INFERNAL AFFAIRS.
Hey peeps!! You all HAVE to watch the show!! You really dunno what you are missing!!!! IT'S SO STINKING NICE!!! ARGH!! I'm gonna watch it again!! lalala...
Wah... edisen chen is sooooo handsome! Whenever he appear, i'd just melt loh!! hmm... maybe this time it's not as good as the previous one BUT it's still nice! Wanted to cry a few times and really did for a particular scene... wah.. just practically couldn't breathe.. Who wants to watch again?~ Ask me ask me!! My promos ends on the 9th!
man.. i'm in a holiday or post exams mood now.. a bit or many bits worried... I don't even feel like I'm having exams! It's worrying worrying worrying.. When i did the mock paper yesterday for econs, I couldn't answer ANY of the MCQs but managed to guess the ans of a few correctly. Time is burning out. or already out. Tomorrow is my econs paper. God bless me.
P/s: I thank God for Chris. When i saw pple i'm not suppose to, he called me. Indeed I had fallen into the trap of denial. And i'm getting out of it. Thank God for divinely appointed friends- Chris!! =)
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