These two mths were the most amazing two mths I ever had. Ok other than loving God, loving my family, loving pple around me, TRYing to love studying for my prelims and A’s (argh!!!), another person I now have to love is elvin. =) (ok.. put back your jaws!)
It’s really a long way before we’re attached. Things were rough and tough and sometimes I really wanna give up, largely due to my eyes blinded by other things but we saw God’s hands throughout. It’s really amazing and sweet and securing how God bring two pple together.. The way He showed us this relationship, helping us always to turn back to Him for strength, increasing our faith and confidence in Him, giving leaders and ourselves the peace and assurance that this is a God given relationship, withstanding storms under His wings together and everything, all I can say is “Thank you, God. For always being in our relationship with each other.”
I’ve knew elvin for nearly 6yrs. Like what I said in his friendster’s testimonial, I witnessed his horizontal expansion and contraction, his loud sneeze, his crappiness, his awesome voice, his tears, his heart and love for pple, his care n concern for the younger ones, his insanity in East Timor, his singlet n ultra short shorts when at home, his bag that is never packed n can contain sunday bulletin from a yr ago, his weird theory abt eating deep fried food when sick can cure illnesses, his willingness to help everyone even if he dreads it sometimes like having to carry someone on the back, his slow speed in washing dishes and clothes and ironing, his nagginess, his guitar skills, his talent in writing, his head tt's made of wood or maybe iron, his... Although we sort of know we like each other last December, we didn’t take it off just like that.. A choice to let God be in picture in everything we do is important.. of course, we prayed and prayed and prayed. Heh.. So spiritual. Haha.. =) God revealed to each of us a plan He has for both of us and we were very excited. He showed us that He has indeed placed us in each other’s life and future. Throughout this whole period, I can dare say we didn’t “scandalously” meet up often unless with other frens. We were friends, mild but cherished it dearly. =) Of course now, can meet more often already. =)
When we finally told each other in April, we were extremely happy… Cos both of us were assured in the Lord for this relationship. Of course, we continued praying and seek advice and counseling from leaders..
Frankly, things didn’t go as smoothly as we thought it would, the future that God held for us. Not mentioning the overwhelming negative remarks that we got, it was partly our excitement for this relationship that we nearly chose to love each other more than God, taking things in our own pace and way. It was scarily dangerous.. But we thank God for He pulled us back into His presence again because of His grace, mercy and most importantly, His love for us… Seriously, when God is in control, everything will work well for His greatest glory..
Because we nearly fell into the trap of Satan, the more we cherish this relationship and work towards making it beautiful in God’s eyes. But it’s not just two party but THREE. God, elvin and me. Of course, it really requires lots of discipline that we do feel tired and frustrated sometimes but God stilled our hearts.. He exchanged those negative feelings with more love and patience, be it towards each other or others. I wouldn’t say we are Saints but putting on Christ-likeness even in a love relationship, strengthens our faith in God. Now we are having counseling with Bro Stanley and Sis Regina and they gave us advice and guidelines to help us esp when sometimes we really didn’t how a Christian BGR should be handled. Thank God for other leaders like Sis Lily, Jidi, Pastor Jeremy, uncle John, Shirley, who care a lot for us too. =)
Ok.. this entry is getting too long.. next time then update again. =)
Shall end with this song that elvin sang during our first official date. I know he meant every word he sang and I also want to be there through thick and thin. =)
I Will Be Here
-Steven Curtis Chapman
Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I, I will be here
If in the dark, we lose sight of love
Hold my hand, and have no fear
'Cause I, I will be here
I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
’Cause I will be here
Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I, I will be here
As sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I, I will be here
I will be here
So you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you mean to me
I will be here
I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me
Just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I, I will be here
We’ll be together
‘Cause I will be here
I will be here.
